I don't know where to post this...

strawberry25shortcake

:sad: ...but I really need to shout out "I AM ANGRY AND CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE!". I am a full time student, moved here from Europe 5 years ago...married to a wonderful man who is unfortunately working all the time...I am lonely...And so I have been eating junk and garbage every two or so hours for absolutely no reason. And then I hate myself the next day, but do it again anyways. I am only 25, what's gonna happen when I am 35, 45...if I even get there. My body feels terrible. I have been working out every day, but that doesn't help- it doesn't really make me feel better. I hit these "walls" about once a month and it has gotten to the point where I am just not looking forward to those few happy moments because I know the next wave coming is gong to be the negative one. I am so angry I get this feeling get over me, but I have no idea how to handle it. Anyways, thanks for listening. At least there are MFP's to read my bragging:grumble:

strawberry25shortcake

:sad: ...but I really need to shout out "I AM ANGRY AND CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE!". I am a full time student, moved here from Europe 5 years ago...married to a wonderful man who is unfortunately working all the time...I am lonely...And so I have been eating junk and garbage every two or so hours for absolutely no reason. And then I hate myself the next day, but do it again anyways. I am only 25, what's gonna happen when I am 35, 45...if I even get there. My body feels terrible. I have been working out every day, but that doesn't help- it doesn't really make me feel better. I hit these "walls" about once a month and it has gotten to the point where I am just not looking forward to those few happy moments because I know the next wave coming is gong to be the negative one. I am so angry I get this feeling get over me, but I have no idea how to handle it. Anyways, thanks for listening. At least there are MFP's to read my bragging:grumble:

MFR1974

Hi! Sounds to me like you would benefit from some counseling. Maybe even some short term drug therapy for depression. I would see a doctor...depression can be super hard on the body. I went through it myself years ago...and did not want to do the drugs..or talk to anyone. Then someone said this...if you were diabetic you would take your medication right? Well...it's the same thing...a medical condition that can be treated. Anyway...I just wanted to tell you that I saw your post and my heart went out to you. You are not alone. If you need someone to talk to you are certainly welcome to email me. Take care of yourself and try to be more mindful about what you are eating. I look at my calories as a bank account...I can spend them anyway I want...but when they are gone, they are gone. I've only been doing this a week...but think this sight can be so helpful and uplifting! Take care!!!

mistyreed82

Its totally ok to "break down" once in a while. We ALL do it!!! TRUST ME!! I am the same way. I am a full-time mom, medical assistance, and wife. It gets hard, but you have to look deep down inside you and find who you are and who you want to be. That is my inspiration and motivation. I am 27 and I feel horrible about the way I look etc. BUT....I have reached a point where I see my mom and grandma and I KNOW I DONT WANT TO BE THEM...overweight and unhappy. I have kids and a husband that I want to be around for. It also helps that my hubby has lost 45lbs in 4mths. He REALLY helps keep me pushing to my goal!! You need someone to be supportive of you and help push you away from the "bad" eating. Anyways...that is why you have this site and all the ppl to help support you!!! Keep your head up and you will make it!!! GOOD LUCK!!