Addicted to food?

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So I have come to the conclusion over the last month or so that I am truly addicted to food. I mean, we all know we have to eat to stay alive . . but I find myself falling far too easily back into bad habits. Eating fast food, eating in the car, lots of mindless eating. Feel like I've really slipped and I am struggling. There, I said it. It feels better somehow even if just a little.

I ate Burger King tonight on the way home after work. Did it make my day better? Not really. I went to the gym even though it was really the last place I wanted to be. Worked out for about 45 mins and was driving home only to realize that I was passing Walgreens and CVS . . and gee, some Valentines candy would really hit the spot. It was at that moment that I kind of had a reality check so to speak. Yes - I love candy and I love a good deal even more. But I also knew that I could probably sit down and eat a whole BAG of candy in one sitting if I allowed myself to. So, I drove on past . . went straight home. That is my small accomplishment for the day.

I find myself thinking and obsessing about food a lot lately. Anyone else out there feel the same way? Every fast food place seems to call my name, every store is loaded with goodies and sweets and salty snacks. Heck, even the vending machine at work is temptation with a capital T. I need to break the cycle of thinking about food constantly, somehow.

At this point in my journey (and it's been about 10 months total) I have lost a grand total of 61.5 pounds. Just before Thanksgiving I was officially down 72 pounds. I felt SOOOOO good. I want to reclaim that feeling - and reclaim those 10.5 pounds that have slipped back on so easily.

I think January and February are tough months . . a bit of the post-holiday, anti-climactic BLAH time of the year. Throw in a mix of low mood and being a single mom to a 17 year old teenage girl . . well, it's just been a rough patch, for sure. Now, I am not going to engage in any self-pity and I don't want to make any excuses for myself or my poor diet. I just know it's time to make a change and renew my commitment to myself.

Anyone else out there feel the same? I'd love to hear some feedback, postiive or negative.