Will Power & Motivation.. Can I Have It?

PoeticDove

Newbie here, not really sure where to start.. so I'll give a brief history on myself.

I'm 29 years old, southern gal from Louisiana. In November 2011 I was diagnosed with "complex endometrial hyperplasia with atypia", they told me 33% of women with the complex form like I had develops cancer and recommended that I have a hysterectomy. They gave me 2 weeks to decide whether I wanted to try to conceive or just go through with the surgery. My fiance (boyfriend at the time) and I went back and forth on the decision because we had talked about having a child for the past year (I have a daughter of my own). As much as I wanted to, I had to think of my daughter and my health and I went ahead with the surgery.

I know in my head that my weight wasn't the cause of it, I just have crappy womanly organs, but I can't help but think what will be caused by my weight.. I know my fiance loves me regardless of my weight but he does mention things about it often and says he's worried I will develop health issues like several people in my family. I know he means well, and he encourages me no matter what I decide, but my will power sucks. I never stick with anything!

I've done Weight Watchers, I've done self-made strict diets, and they did work but I always gave up. It becomes more of a chore than a lifestyle change and I'm not really sure how to program my brain to think of it as something other than "work" or a "diet". So my New Year's resolution was to get back into shape, because since my surgery in December I had lost almost 10lbs, so I was very motivated, and ready to start.

Well all of January was fine, I watched what I ate, did portion control, even walked a mile in the morning after bringing my daughter to school, got an exercising bike, was doing good. But as I always do... I just gave up. I was down almost 15lbs and now I think I have gained it all back.

I get sick of eating the same thing day after day.. I know several food switches, I know to eat more veggies and fruits, I know what to do I just need help with knowing how to not give up

vvanm

So, you think you have less willpower than normal weight people? I don't believe willpower has anything to do with it. If you gave a normal weight person a pill that caused the same powerful food cravings you have, they would eat themselves sick. I think brain chemistry that is out of balance has more to do with weight. If you are craving more food than you need, something isn't working right and you need to find out what that is. Rule out physical problems and then tackle nutrition. If you are eating 1200 calories of junk, your brain can't function optimally and you will fail. If your blood sugar is spiking, you will spin out of control. Those are the kind of things I look for anyway. Genetics are there, but they can be managed, and they will never define the person you choose to be. Your daughter will be a great motivator for you. Not only will she have social activities that you will want to participate in, but she will need you as a role model for how to become a thriving young woman. Take it one day at a time and in a fast year you will feel like a new person. Good luck!