Starting Over

candycaneps

About a month ago, I made a post in regards to my best friend being in the hospital. I wasn't able to workout or really eat right.
Two weeks ago, she died. The last thing that has been on my mind, is taking care of myself. I KNOW that my cravings were driven by the emotional void I was feeling, but it didn't matter. I am still hurting a lot, but it's time to get back on the right track, I just have a hard time saying no to food and yes to working out. It was 100 degree F here yesterday! I thought I was going to faint just from walking to my car and back!

Any tips on getting back on the horse?

candycaneps

About a month ago, I made a post in regards to my best friend being in the hospital. I wasn't able to workout or really eat right.
Two weeks ago, she died. The last thing that has been on my mind, is taking care of myself. I KNOW that my cravings were driven by the emotional void I was feeling, but it didn't matter. I am still hurting a lot, but it's time to get back on the right track, I just have a hard time saying no to food and yes to working out. It was 100 degree F here yesterday! I thought I was going to faint just from walking to my car and back!

Any tips on getting back on the horse?

DonzGirl

my deepest sympathy...will be praying for you....keep your chin up!

kimss

I must live in the same area as you, it was 100 degrees here too. I don't recommend you exercise in this kind of weather. But, you can go to the mall and walk,"indoor mall" or Walmart. they have AC and then you get a workout and do a little shopping,or just "window shopping" if thats all you can do.
I'm sorry for your loss, and you must remember that you have to take care of yourself still. If you can't start today, give yourself a little patience and love and know that your here talking, and sometimes that is the beginning. don't worry about jumping in full force if thats not how you feel, if it is then great, it might take your mind off of things. just be gentle to your soul, it is hurting and tender right now and you should help yourself with love and kindness. keep talking with people and letting yourfeelings out there and soon you'll start to feel ready again.
my heart goes out to you and I wish I had the magic to make your hurt go away.
Have a good day today, tomorrow will take care of itself.

candycaneps

Thank you, I really do appreciate the kind words. It is going to take time and I know that. As much as I want it to end quickly it just won't. A large part of me thinks "who cares" about being fit and losing weight because compared to everything else that is going on right now it doesn't seem important. I have noticed a weight gain and it does make me feel worse. I don't like looking at myself. She got to heaven before I did, and while I am here I still need to take care of myself. It's the motivation to get up and do it that I am missing. Especially the working out part. I feel so blah all the time. Also, the last week I have experienced a tingling in my right arm that is just bugging the crud out of me. (I am on hold with the doctors office right now to see if I can be seen today)
Anyway, I know this is going to be a struggle, but I also know I can't let myself continue on like this either.

You're right. We are in the same area.

I was actually born and raised in Orange County, I go up there every weekend to see my family and friends. It was 100 in Orange County and when I made my way back down to San Diego yesterday, it was a TAD cooler but at 6:00pm it was still 90 degrees. =(

debnu1

I am sorry for your loss, just remember that food will not make the pain go away. It may help to find a substitute for eating. (see dr. Phil: walking, taking a bath, something incompatible with eating when you feel bad) The best thing to do is to just take everything one minute, one day at a time. Set a timer and walk in place for 5 minutes and work up to ten, one little thing will make a difference. With that 5 min challenge, you know you can do that, and you can be proud of yourself for doing it. With food, tell yourself to eat at least one fruit and/or vegie a day, once you do that work up to more. You can do it, Just one baby step at a time!! Take care :flowerforyou: :flowerforyou:

KatWood

I'm so sorry about your loss. I know how insignificant weightloss can seem it comparison to the pain you are feeling.
Just remember that your friend would want what is best for you, which means being the healthiest and happiest you that you can be.

Good luck and stay positive:flowerforyou:

leann_m_olson

Just do it! Is there a pool you can do laps in, an indoor place to work out? 100 degrees is definatle y fricken hot! Excercise can be very theraputic if you can just start doing it.... Maybe you can work to doing a 5K in your friends honor?

kimss

I am sorry for your loss, just remember that food will not make the pain go away. It may help to find a substitute for eating. (see dr. Phil: walking, taking a bath, something incompatible with eating when you feel bad) The best thing to do is to just take everything one minute, one day at a time. Set a timer and walk in place for 5 minutes and work up to ten, one little thing will make a difference. With that 5 min challenge, you know you can do that, and you can be proud of yourself for doing it. With food, tell yourself to eat at least one fruit and/or vegie a day, once you do that work up to more. You can do it, Just one baby step at a time!! Take care :flowerforyou: :flowerforyou:

great advice.....!!! I would do this if you can.... good luck, my prayers are with you..

francis904

I am so sorry. I know there is nothing any of us can say to take the pain away. I just lost my Dad unexpectedly in December to a massive heart attack. He was only 59. I just keep telling myself that I don't want to put my family and friends through this pain. I have a history of heart disease and diabetes in my family. I know that if I want to see my kids grow old and be the most awsome grandma ever...I have to do this right now. I have taken my pain and turned it into motivation. Maybe you can find a way to do the same. I have learned that life is too short to say that I will start exercising tomorrow or dieting tomorrow...there is no guarentee of tomorrow so I had better start today.

Good luck, I will keep you in my prayers.

candycaneps

Thank you all for your kind words and support. A few of you have shared some losses of your own, and I am sorry. It is never easy. I know it will take time, and I just have to get myself up and out. Sometimes the depression makes it hard to want to do anything.

I did go to the doctors yesterday and he said I can't do any workouts that involve my hand, arm, or shoulder. =( I have calcium build up on a nerve that besically ends up as a pinched nerve and carpal tunnel in my wrist. What the heck, I'm 24! Anyway, I can't do pilates, weight lifting or anything that puts any strain on it. I can still go on the treadmill and take walks though. I took a walk yesterday.

francis904

That is great! Keep walking. I personally have been in a real funk this week. It has been cold and raining and just too nasty to get out and walk. Today was the first day this week I have gotten my walk in. I am shocked at the difference it has made in my mood. Kepp up the good work and your mood will rise too.