do you have/ did you have binge eating disorder?

amy_marlene

if you do how do you fight it? did you ask for professional help? i have it for two years now and i'm struggling with it on my own. i gained 10 kilos in 4 monts as a result of binge eating.

rdsxgrl28

yes I did. But when I weighed 35olbs it was pretty obvious. I had GBP 9 years ago and lost 200lbs. I have since gotten therapy to deal with both the disorder & underlying causes.

Since my system is pretty normal now, yes after GBP and years you do get back to that place, I am fighting it abit. I bounced back about 55lbs, but this time I feel I have the tools to help me lose in a "normal" way.

Shannon2714

I was bulimic for 10 years. I quit when I got pregnant with my first child. While having babies helped me to control the purging, it did nothing for the binging. I still struggle with that every day. For me, it has just been the support of my husband, a few good friends, and places like MFP. Support makes all the difference.

lilyvale68

I did and sometimes still do. Binge eating is about emotions. Somewhere through the years we learned to run/hide from emotions by eating instead. It's the same pattern for any other addiction...alcohol, drugs, etc. Take some time and examine your emotions. Learn to actually feel them instead of run from them. Accept the fact that we live in a broken world and sometimes bad things happen. We can't hide from them or run from them. We have to go through them and feel all the emotions associated with the bad things. It can be really hard, but you will be healthier both emotionally and physically by it.

I wish you the very best.

TrailRunner61

I was anorexic in the mid 80's. I never went for help and should have when I started having chest pains. My sister told me that I was going to be dead and they would put on my headstone....yeah she was nice and thin and skinny the way she wanted but now she's not here to raise her 2 beautiful daughters! From that moment on, it took me 2 years to to recover. After my 3rd child I gained a few pounds and had a fear of losing it, going back to my old ways of eating nothing and using laxatives. I never binged as far as gorging myself on anything. The fear of being anorexic again helped me to go from 98lbs to 170! Happily I was able to raise my kids in a healthy way and live to see them finish college, etc. But, now im fat!
This past Christmas a friend's son, a 4 yr old little guy, was diagnosed with a brain tumor. I decided to get off my fat *kitten* and walk 1,000 miles for St. Judes in honor of him, since I felt helpless about the situation. I have, since Jan. 1st, walked over 200 miles. I slowly dropped a few pounds and then started to change my diet. Thanks to MFP friends and family who cheer me on (most who dont even know I was ill), I'm eating healthy and even losing weight faster than when I was anorexic. Back then I lost an average of 3/4 of a lb per week. So far, I've lost 12 lbs, a few before joining mfp.
The way I avoid going back to my old ways is by logging my food intake and exercise and I keep it public!!!! I have to be accountable to someone, even if it is people that I really don't know on here. It is working. At times I feel like I'm eating too much but it's because there is more quantity of food with quality. I feel healthier and have more energy than I've ever had. I enjoy my life now and I'm not going back.
As I said, I never went for professional help, but I believe that being anorexic was my way of being in control of something, anything, because I had no control over some problems in my life. Luckily for me, things worked out and I am living a good life. It can happen. If you'd like to add me, please do. Good luck!

Monti_e_lmt

Yes I put on 30-40lbs bc of it and I still struggle with it. I've had it since I was little. My family would just make it worse by the comments they made. I would get told no, and it felt like they were depriving me, and I would sneak and eat bread and mayonaise at night and at school I'd beg other kids for food. As I got older, I fought it out of shame and the fear of another hurtful comment. 3 years ago, I got a job that turned out to be 2 years of pure hell, it was across the street from the grocery store too. So when I got tips, I'd go across the street and buy as much food as I could. I had always wanted to eat a tub of ice cream, pathetic yes, but I felt deprived my whole life only getting a half cup. So I did, I got a quart and I ate the entire thing, and it was a mix of happy and shame. Doing that once should have been enough but I made a habit of it. I also got addicted to chicken salad from the deli and I'd eat the whole container. Zanzi's pizza, is really cheap and really good, I'd order their pizza, size large and want the entire thing, one time I tried to eat the entire thing and got sick but not full. I hardly ever feel full, I finally found out that in conjunction with my mental abnormalities, I also have a hernia that keeps the opening of my stomach open, effectively shutting off my full sensation and going straight to pain. When I binge eat, it is out of rebellion sort of, I don't like being told that I have had enough, I want to make that decision myself, and when no one is around, I over compensate. I really over do it. I wish I could get help. I wish I could have surgery to fix my hernia, I wish I could afford a trainer. But I don't even make enough to support myself, and I have no insurance so I am on my own to fight this. Sometimes I win, begrudgingly, and sometimes I fail and I enjoy every minute of it but when it's done, I cry in shame.