someone kick me is the a**, give my head a shake... why is t

lin7604

ok, i have been trying to loose 15 lbs since end of Oct. Yes it's not a whole he** of a lot compared to so many others but i was at my max weight for my height(5.2ft) and max BMI. All i wanted to do was loose 15 lbs just to get in the healthy zone... All i have done is struggle! I started out my 1st month just trying to correct my eating habits, eat healthier and start to incorporate exercise into my daily life. I pretty much gave up pop and chips and more fried things or breaded things... I am portion controlling, measuring my foods and drinking my water or tea daily... I have never wanted to focus too hard/ too much on exercise that i will fall off the band wagon. I wanted it do able that i WILL keep it in my life forever. Not just go hard to get the weight off and then slack off and not get back into a routine. I am one that has a hard time sticking to something so even if i get in 4 days a week 30 min i'm very happy with that. I only have 1 hr a day between 8-9pm nightly to get any exercise in...

So i did start on Oct 22nd this life style change and did 5 days a week 45 min of cardio ( treadmill or elliptical). After 1 month i saw no change and i discovered MFP. I then realized that even though i was eating healthier i was still eating too many calories as i was eating tons of fruit, not realizing how many calories were in fruit ( eg, bananas)... so i started to plan things out to not go over my calories. I was set to loose 1 lb a week 1200 cals and i always ate my exercise calories and the plan was a goal of 8 lbs in 2 months... I started 30ds in dec to give myself a extra kick, so then my exercise was 7 days a week around 1hr. so by new years i thought i would be half way to my goal. well when new years came i was only 5 lbs down, & 2 inches.... that's it. so i thought in jan, i will do this by diet alone and see where that takes me. Well i hit a 4 week plateau instead... so come Feb i changed my 1lb to a .5 lb loss a week and it gave me 1310 calories a day, since i was only loosing .5 lb a week max i figured why not get extra calories out of it..... after 2 weeks i lost 1 lb but my whole goal of 15 lbs was 5 months and the 20th of march was my ENTIRE goal date. I to date have only lost 8-9 lbs......since Oct 22nd.... i even started 30ds all over again this month and i seem to be stuck again..... why is sooooo hard for me to loose 15 flippen lbs??? i try and try and i have changed so many things in my life with exercise and eating habits but the weight is oh so slowly creeping off.... i just don't know why it is so hard? i get to the point when i just want to throw in the towel and i think well i guess i ment to be this weight....All i wanted to do was be my pre pregnancy weight for my 1st goal and then loose 5 lbs more if i could but i can't even hit my pre pregnancy goal! * sigh*.... is it really worth it? is it worth this stess of watching what i eat and portion out everything and exercise my a** off for what????? I have found this has become a obsession, especially measuring out my foods, logging everything i eat and looking at labels, etc
should i just throw in the towel and accept who i am and what i look like or what???

SummerSkier

It's tough for us shorties! Take it 1 day and 1 pound at a time! You will get there.

lin7604

thx.. why doe sit have to be so hard for us short gals

lin7604

anyone else? should i just give in and accept myself the way i am ?