Am I doing this for the right reasons ?

mykahlio1

my hubby tries to encourage me in my new transformation. before i started to work out and eat right i found out i was severely insulin reseistant and probaby had been all of my life. my hubby tied to push me to take my meds and eat right but it backfired on him. i felt threatened and that he was pushing me to hard . all it did was remind me of what my grandma, mom and aunt had said to me my whole life." you have such a beautiful face, if you would just lose some weight you would be perfect" those words put together in that order have always hurt me so bad that when my husband pushed me to get healthy i pushed back( im extremely stubborn). it took two years after my diagnoses to actually start taking my meds. just about two weeks ago i was on my step daughters facebook checking her account like a good parent(shes only 11 so all of us parents monitor her account) i saw on her moms facebook page that she had started using myfitnesspal so i checked it out and signed up. since then i have been eating better and working out and really trying to push myself. my husband supports me all the way and tells me how proud he is of me. i live 12-14 hours away from all of my family and its very important for me to have him tell me and show me he is supporting me. by the time i see all of my family this winter for some and next spring for the rest of them i want to be a new healthier knock out version of myself. i want to show my family i can and have done it. i want them to see me and say who is that and where did my Dana go? I check my husband ex wifes myfitness pal page regularly to see her progress and it pushes me even more, she has less to lose than me and started a few days before me and she has lost a few pounds more than me so far. it irritates me and pushes me harder when i see she is further in her success than i am.



also another reason i want to get fit is i will be 40 in 15 months and next year on spring break my husband and i are taking his 3 kids to disneyland, california adventure, knotts berry farm, universal studios, sea world and the san diego zoo. i started to plan this trip for 5 but now its a trip for 12 as my mother in law, father in law, grandfather in law, brother in law,sister in law and niece and nephew are all coming too and most of them have either not been to any of these parks or were to little to remember it or only been to 1 or 2 of these parks. im originally from southern california so im going to be the tour guide and i dont want to be lagging behind because im out of shape.


am i going at this all wrong ? or is it okay for these things to motivate me and push me ?

UponThisRock

There's really no "wrong" reason, but comparing yourself to others can lead to a lot of frustration.