Worried about long term upping cals

Reckabek

I have decided to up my cals, after eating low fat small portion probably 1200 give or take diet, and losing 95 lbs that way! I joined my fitness pal in dec. and started tracking my calories. And also became encouraged to start excersising! In which i would work out 4-6 days a week and havent budged since i started working out and also was not eating my calories back.

So upon research i decided to eat back my excersise calories.

What i am worried about is if i ever stopped excersising ( because i am a all or none obsessive person) and became accustomed to eating so much then i would gain my weight back...i have gotten so use to eating little many meals throughout the day. Now to eat my cals back im eating alot more and as often.

I just dont wanna feel that starving feeling i was able to get rid of....and worked hard to get rid of. I dont even know if i make sense. I guess i feel like i shrunk my stomach and dont wanna expand it back out for the sake of excersise.... Im scared!!

Reckabek

Any suggestions how to make me feel comfortable with this change would help! Thanks guys and gals!