I feel like I'm doing this wrong (serious issue)

samantha115

I use to diet correctly. I use to eat all 1200 of my calories. When I restarted dieting I limited myself to 1000 which is fine, I ate alit of food. Now I'm lucky if I can eat 800 calories, lately its 500, and Im so hungry. I dont want to eat. To make matters worse Ive been cutting all unnecessary carbs. Its making my already small foods to to choose from even smaller. That isnt all, if I want to eat something thats carby or sweet, I have a terrible sweet tooth, I will wait until everyone is in bed and asleep and I binge and purge. It's the worst thing, I feel wrong afterwards. It allows me to have the sweet though.

I know what Im doing. I know what I'm doing isnt good, or healthy, or far from the correct way to diet. I know I need help. I am proud of myself for being able to recognize what Im doing. The problem is Idont know if I'm ready for help. I like the results im getting. I can't keep this inside me anymore I need to tell someone. Thanks for reading. Just pray for me please, I don't want criticism.

lizard053

I really hope you can get beyond this and get back to healthier habits! Nothing wrong with a sweet here and there, so don't beat yourself up for it! It's ok! I have a horrible sweet tooth, and I have candy hidden all over the place. It's a scary thing to realize what you are doing, and know it's not a healthy habit!

Good luck to you, seek professional help if you can't get beyond this on your own! Please, for your own sake!

Doreen_Murray

Prayers for you and absolutely no criticism here. It sounds like you want to do better so you CAN and WILL! I think an eating disorder support group would help tremendously if that is an option for you. Maybe connecting with a nutritionist on here will also help you determine a better plan of action to reach your goals. Best of luck to you! :flowerforyou:

riverabeth

I have not personally dealt w/ this type of behavior, but I'm sorry you are going through this. I think sometimes when we take control of our eating/lifestyle choices it becomes a great source of pride and even power for us. I guess you just have to use your control & "power" in a healthier way. Maybe focusing on fitness/exercise instead of restricting your calories so drastically. Sorry I don't have much insight to offer, but I will be praying someone can reach out to you. Hang in there!