Support and encouragement

classylady41

Hello I am here to give support and encouragement.. and vice versa.. I have been batting with weight gain.. I am 42 years old.. my self asteem was very low..I didnt think I would ever shed some pounds .. I was diagnosed with depression years ago so that didnt help.. I use to eat to comfort my depression.. I use to hide myself from others thinking that they would have bad thoughts about my weight.. I really put the pounds on when I quit smoking last year.. I just could not get enough food always hungry.. I never knew and understand about food and calories.. I really got bad 6 months ago.. I remember sitting at the table with a box of cereal corn pops.. I ate the whole box in one sitting.. as the months went on the weight came on... I was always feeling tierd.. my depression got worse.. went and did some counselling.. my counsellor got me to start the protien drinks.. the ensure.. what I didnt do was the biggest mistake,, I would eat right after having a bottle of ensure.. not a good thing.. I was noticing my cothes would not fit me anymore.. was wearing sweats and baggy t shirts to cover the weight gain.. I was once shopping for grocerys and a lady came up to me and asked me when I was due.. how can u explain that to someone.. I was depressed and told the truth.. I gained weight.. I could not look in the mirror without feeling depressed.. what I saw was a huge person that was very unattractive.. my belly started to get bigger.. at night I would wake up having to pull my pjama bottoms up over my belly.. then I started noticing that it was getting harder to get up and walk up stairs.. my breathing was unreal always out of breath.. I would sleep more.. I was hitting bottom big time.. all my pants were ripped or buttons were off from trying to wear them.. I remember laying on my bed and all of a sudden the bed went.. looked at the bed my weight bent the frame and wheels.. I was soo embarrassed about my weight.. worried about breaking things just by sitting on chairs.. I still continued to eat.. every chance I got when I had change to go to the store for a bag of chips or candy.. I was slowly hurting my self inside and out.. I use to drink nothing but juice or pop.. the only time I had water is when I had to take my medication (antidepressents) ... I had nooo energy.. I started slacking off with the house work... it was horrible.. then we moved to a new city.. decided to visit my mom in bc ... british columbia) I started to do some walking lost little weight.. then came back from my holiday and started back to where I was before.. depression was getting worse.. I finally went back to visit my mom because my grandma was doing too well.. and my mom fell and broke her ankle 3 ways and crushed both ankle bones.. my mom introduced me to this program.. and she explained and showed me how to count calories .. I took this serous relizing that if I dont get myself together I will end up having a heart attack .. I started drinking water more ... I started walking.. counting calories.. I did my first weigh in when I joined this program I was 212.. I got back home and I am now enjoying life and has a good additude and confidence about myself.. I look in the mirror and tell myself you can do it.. I bought myself new wardrobe... and feeling like a million dollars.. then when I noticed slowly I was shedding weight off I look forward to wakeing up and getting my day off to a good start.. my best friend now is water... I am thankful and blessed to join this program.. makes me look forward to logging on here everyday to share and support others and encourage them that we are not alone and work together .. we are not alone.. we can do this... I belive in me .. I belive in all of you... and thanx once again for all your support its been awesome.. and I am continueing to take care of myself and stop hurting it.. I feel more energetic.. I can walk better.. I am not out of breath. and the pounds are slowly shedding.. and I can now look at myself in the mirror without being depressed on what I see... my depression isnt as bad.. I smile everyday knowing my body is thanking me for changing my life style.. I really hope this experience and me sharing my thoughts and my battles to encourage others its never to late.. lets do this together.. think pos.. and we will succeed and make our goals and dreams come true..

cowsstealmythong

I'm glad that you (and the rest of us) woke up before there were serious consequences to carrying around an extra person without being pregnant. We can do this! Together. Nothing is impossible. The word itself says "I'm possible."