A new life

Hailei

Hello everybody!
I am so happy to have finally made the step towards a better life and I'm so sure that being a part of this community is going to help a whole lot!
My name is Hailei, I'm from Romania and I'm 27 yrs old. My weight is huge and joking a little, I have no idea how I got here.
Actually I do, but it doesn't really account for this huge weight.. I hate it that my body decide to just store everything I give to him. Why is he such a hoarder? )
Ok, so, I've been chubby my whole life, but things have gotten bad after the age of 23, when I've changed my work and things got a little (a lot) chaotic.
I don't even know how the years have gone by and here I am, so close to my 30s looking so not like I've pictured myself, suffering so much for not being able to show how beautiful I should be enormously shy and somehow introverted, always questioning my abilities and sadly I;m not talking only about the physical ones.
I am frightened of changing my job, even though I've had enough, because people here know me and know what I'm capable of. I;m afraid of the interview, because I am really embarrassed about how I'm going to appear to the employer. Not to mention the idea of meeting a whole new team and the look in their eyes. I mean', I'm not hideous, but I'm really fat and I know how people feel about that...
SO, moving on from my overly long "presentation" (I have this problem, where I just can't write a little, if I'm gonna integrate here and I'm gonna write in the topics, you'll see how I can't be short on words lol): there is this point where all of a sudden (not quite, but much more sudden then I'd ever think) I decide I;m gonna do it. Of course, during these rough years I've had my share of tries, but failed, because I wanted results NOW and I would eat very very little (my health shows the consequences now), didn't do any sports...
Now, I'm on a diet, I'm keeping out the fried things, the sweets, the sugars, the pastries, the breads.... So far, I;ve been eating mostly salads (as it is the perfect season for it) - chicken salad, summer salad.
I have no problems with not eating sweets, I'm not a fan, but what I suffer most about are the pastries. Hopefully, I'm gonna make it.
As a sport, I;ve been doing zumba 1h twice a week, for the past two weeks and since this week I'm doing zumba, tae-bo and step aerobic - 1h every day (not an hour each, but an hour of one of these)
I'm so surpised about how I'm feeling, like super ENERGETIC and cheerful.. I think it has to do with working out and with eating vitamins, I'm in a good mood and I have this urge to to sports and to become pretty and healthy and thin and fit and light
Being in such a cheerful mood helps very very much in keeping my positive attitude and hopefully will keep on doing so.
Nice to meet you all and you have my deep admiration for working into making yourself a better person