hello support please lol

Kristyr1989

Hey all, a few months ago i started on my diet was doing well lost 10lb in 3 week amd then my son got took in hospital with suspected menengitus, stayed in hospital for a week and i'll be truthful i eat **** could call it comfort eating. I struggled to get back on my diet and now nearly 2 months later i am back to my old bad habits, takeaways, grabbing something quick instead of planning and eating healthy. Not every day is the same i have good and bad days but i have woke up with the determination to do it all again. I need to do this i have a very low self esteem i hate the way i look, avoid mirrors at all costs. I want to feel happy with myself, It's affecting my relationship because i hate myself so i think how can he want me looking like this. I feel worthless and just wish i could click my fingers and look how i want. Obviously that isn't going to happen and it takes a lot of hard work and determination. I'm looking for a bit of support because allthough my family have supported me probably a million times i know that they think oh here we go again just another diet and know i will give in. But this makes me more determined i need to show them that i can do this. I have my best friends wedding in August and i am chief bridesmaid so i want to try and lose a couple of stone for then and just carry on.
Any help and advice is greatly appreciated.
Thankyou x