I want my Wings back....

WildcatGirl81
WildcatGirl81 Posts: 8
in Motivation and Support
So, 9 years ago I entered into a relationship that I thought I would be in for the rest of my life. We talked about committment and marriage, but it never came? Last year I started to realize that maybe it was me. I had gotten "comfortable" and I had reached my heaviest weight ever (5'9" - 250lbs) and I had lost my wings. I no longer felt free and spirited, but rather caged and alone. Here I was 30 years old, not married, no family, struggling with my increasing scale numbers, feeling unsupported and pretending that my life was perfect, I hid my emotions, I hid myself. I woke up one morning in January and said enough is enough. I joined a local bootcamp and starting eating healthy and clean. I began on a journey that I had no idea where it was leading. 3 months later and 40 lbs lighter I still feel alone. Losing wieght and feeling better about myself did not help my relationship but seemed to hinder it. I made the decision to walk away from that feeling, I need to love myself and have someone love me as I am. So the cage door is open and I'm getting ready to step out of that door....I'm abandoning all I have known in this small town for the last 15 years and moving to Las Vegas. New job, new people, new scenery, but most important......new ME. I hope to have the strength to overcome any obstacles or temptations that I encounter, I hope to stay on the path to becoming an even healthier and fit me, I hope my wings grow back, cuz I'm taking flight whether I'm ready or not.

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  • shelbyterry5
    shelbyterry5 Posts: 23 Member
    Good Luck :))
  • aztrainer2
    aztrainer2 Posts: 1
    We wish you all the best! You showed determination with your workouts and look how much you accomplished....you will have the strength to continue.....we know you have it in you.

    Our best wishes to MarySusan....Boot Camp will miss your sweet face!
  • clover5
    clover5 Posts: 1,640 Member
    Bravo WildCatGirl. You are very brave.
  • graelwyn
    graelwyn Posts: 1,340 Member
    All the best, it sounds like a great adventure, and you must have a lot of strength to do this.
  • zoeluiisa
    zoeluiisa Posts: 392
    Good luck. You're an inspiration (and I'm a Brit, and we don't say things like that easily!)
  • kardsharp
    kardsharp Posts: 516 Member
    You go girl!
  • chloe112679
    chloe112679 Posts: 22
    you make me smile:)
  • tafoya1
    tafoya1 Posts: 1
    GO GET 'EM Friend!!!! Love your guts TONS AND TONS. so proud of you!!!! You will do AMAZING!!!! XOXOXOXOXO

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