New to the game...

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I've had MFP for a while, usually just use it on my phone to track calories and rarely post my intake for the day or get on the site. Until now. I am officially fed up with my looks. I used to be so content with my body... Or would I just be content with it now? Either way, I had a son and decided eating for two meant eating until I weighed 204 pounds. I am now at 174. MUCH better than 204! However, I am not healthy, I am not fit, I am not happy. My son and my fiance deserve a better me. I am in this........ And I have no idea what I'm doing! I have a history with an ED that I want to stay in my history. My previous ideas of a diet was not eating, so I do not know the right way to diet. I mean, I know the general rules: fruit, veggies, lean meats. But, I'm no good at balancing and I find myself binging on fruit snacks before bed. And I definitely don't drink enough water and I never have. So, I am finally posting now, looking for help and motivation. PLEASE HELP ME!!