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MY formal introduction..my E.D. past is LONG behind me :)
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Okay--so where do I start? I was never overweight--I cheered most of my tween/teen years and maintained a ~100-102 pound body at 4'11 with GINORMOUS thighs from all the jumping (cheerleader do a crapton of "jumps" that really require explosive movements and thus strong quads).
I decided when I was a Freshman in college to take Physiological Science and fell in love with it. I became a tutor, TA, and then started working at a gym. I was like a sponge--started reading peer reviewed articles and learning about human metabolism in addition to fitness and training.((i still do loads of reading because I am very ANTI broscience))
Fast forward 1 year--I developed an eating disorder after a bout of depression from a breakup with my HS sweetheart of 5 years--it wasn't about weight loss per se. It was an addiction and a distraction. I weighed about 70 pounds at my worst and still attended class, got good grades, and just wallowed in despair INSIDE. But a light switch went off and I was like WTF?!?!? Why am I doing this--I hated my body and I was ashamed of myself. I recovered, ALONE, and never looked back. Weighed in every Friday-expecting to gain--no gain meant more calories. Too great a gain meant keeping them the same NEVER did I reduce them or starve. I was done with that.
While working at the gym I started training--building muscles and endurance--working my *kitten* off to love my body. I got there--weighing in at 92-95 pounds for almost 1.5 years and then getting into heavy lifting. That's where i am now.Heavy lifting, endurance running, and eating a sh!tload.
I currently weigh somewhere in the 95-100 pound range and lift HEAVY for my size. Never do I drop those calories below 1800 (when trying to drop a few pounds). On a typical day I'm eating 2200-2800 calories with an average of 2400-2500.
So yeah, that's a bit about me. In terms of my personal life--I met the most amazing man here on MFP--he is all that I could ever want and I hope that our future together will be one filled with happiness and the most amazing times!
Oh, and in terms of "what I do" ....I study law in the Northeast and will be graduating in 2014 then returning to CA--where I grew up. I plan to work at a big law firm in order to provide my future family with the life I wish I could have had.
soooo...yeah, if you actually read all of this then WOW I am amazed. LOL. That's me in a nutshell
I decided when I was a Freshman in college to take Physiological Science and fell in love with it. I became a tutor, TA, and then started working at a gym. I was like a sponge--started reading peer reviewed articles and learning about human metabolism in addition to fitness and training.((i still do loads of reading because I am very ANTI broscience))
Fast forward 1 year--I developed an eating disorder after a bout of depression from a breakup with my HS sweetheart of 5 years--it wasn't about weight loss per se. It was an addiction and a distraction. I weighed about 70 pounds at my worst and still attended class, got good grades, and just wallowed in despair INSIDE. But a light switch went off and I was like WTF?!?!? Why am I doing this--I hated my body and I was ashamed of myself. I recovered, ALONE, and never looked back. Weighed in every Friday-expecting to gain--no gain meant more calories. Too great a gain meant keeping them the same NEVER did I reduce them or starve. I was done with that.
While working at the gym I started training--building muscles and endurance--working my *kitten* off to love my body. I got there--weighing in at 92-95 pounds for almost 1.5 years and then getting into heavy lifting. That's where i am now.Heavy lifting, endurance running, and eating a sh!tload.
I currently weigh somewhere in the 95-100 pound range and lift HEAVY for my size. Never do I drop those calories below 1800 (when trying to drop a few pounds). On a typical day I'm eating 2200-2800 calories with an average of 2400-2500.
So yeah, that's a bit about me. In terms of my personal life--I met the most amazing man here on MFP--he is all that I could ever want and I hope that our future together will be one filled with happiness and the most amazing times!
Oh, and in terms of "what I do" ....I study law in the Northeast and will be graduating in 2014 then returning to CA--where I grew up. I plan to work at a big law firm in order to provide my future family with the life I wish I could have had.
soooo...yeah, if you actually read all of this then WOW I am amazed. LOL. That's me in a nutshell
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thank you so much for sharing what all you've been through - it's made you SUCH a strong woman today, and I'm so thankful we're friends
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You never cease to amaze me:) thanks for telling your story and for being my friend:)
Have I told you lately that YOU ROCK!0 -
I so appreciate your passion for your own health, and that of others. What a great post!!!0
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All I can say is awesome. This is awesome. 0
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you are all very welcome! I love you all...seriously. I wish we could hang out--pick up and put down some heavy *kitten* and then go out to a buffet ....lol. seriously. thank you all for being so amazing and supportive! 0
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wow, all so very impressive and inspiring. seriously love having women like you around and in my day!0
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You're super inspiring! 0
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Super inspirational Thank you for sharing 0
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God, I've been off MFP too long. I read the title of this story and thought
"Someone's weight loss caused their Erectile dysfunction to go away? I MUST READ THIS!!!!"
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God, I've been off MFP too long. I read the title of this story and thought
"Someone's weight loss caused their Erectile dysfunction to go away? I MUST READ THIS!!!!"
or maybe erectile dysfunction is plaguing you so it's on the forefront of your mind?!?..hehe. i hope not. lol.0 -
Wow - what an inspiring story!0
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I've seen your posts in other topics and I've looked at your profile pics and I always thought you seemed like a pretty awesome young lady. Now I know you are. Thank you for sharing your story.0
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You must have some serious will power and mental control to accomplish what you have and to have done it so young and alone..0
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thanks for the encouragement, it is my hope that my story inspires someone..ANYONE...to get healthy. E.D.'s are not worth wasting your life on. You can overcome them and you're not alone. I just want to be a source of support for people who think they have no way out--YOU CAN GET OUT OF IT AND HAVE A LIFE AGAIN! I PROMISE. It is hard and scary but it's NOT IMPOSSIBLE!0
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Great, inspiring story! And your body definitely shows how much work you've put in (and I love that you love to eat too)! Good luck with your law career.0
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I you. Really, I do. I hope you inspire more people, especially women out there who are struggling. 0
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@ Glados--thank you!
@ Dayna--I do my best 0 -
These stories and posts are amazing! I believe I picked the right place to start my new fitness-y journey. Such nice and inspiring people on MFP. Great story too by the way L4!0
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Way to be honest and raw, Love. Your story will definitely inspire others to move on, lift heavy and EAT!
You rock! :glasses:0 -
You. Are. Awesome. Love you girl!!! 0
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Simply spectacular!0
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You are totally awesome Love!0
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i like how you decided to get better alone. thats how i did it too....i mean, with the help of a nutrtionist haha. i didnt even know what a normal meal looked like!!0
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This is truly amazing, so motivational. You should be so proud of yourself 0
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thanks for sharing!! you are so helpful and inspiring! 0
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thank you everyone. you're all incredible. I didn't think i'd get these responses but I'm happy I did!! 0
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I don't really think I can make a comment to do your post justice - so I will keep it simple - you totally rock girl.
Now...go pick up something heavy, put it down and eat a cr*p load of food!!0 -
HAHA--I've been doing that all day. Damn weights turn me into a ravenous beast!0
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Having been through an ED myself I know just how hard it is to recover, and you are just awe-inspiring! You have such a healthy attitude now and i have to say that it has really helped me to get over those last pesky ED thoughts when i see you posting about enjoying food and being healthy and just your story in general, so thank you! And well done ^_^0
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I wanna know more about the guy...
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