Really gung-ho!

messymutt

Hi! I'm Adrien. I'm 24, and I live in the Dallas area.

I started using the myfitnesspal app on my Droid a few months ago, but I fell off the wagon and stopped using it. A couple of days ago I got onto the website, and I'm loving using both.

I started this year with a goal of losing 5 lbs a month, but I did not follow-through. Instead, I've mostly maintained my weight. It often fluctuates by a few pounds, but sadly it does keep going up slowly.

I weigh 188 right now. I weighed 191 two days ago, but I've been really gung-ho about working out and watching what I eat...kinda. Well, keeping better track of what I eat. I did say my weight fluctuates a few pounds.

I'm by no means a tiny girl, but I'm at the biggest I've ever been in my life, and I do not like it. When I was in high school, I was a size 16 and weighed about 164. Being a teenager these days and not being super skinny isn't easy, but I became okay with it as I got older, as I became more self-confident. Then, during my senior year I was on birth control pills to regulate my hormones, became more active with my friends, ate less, I guess, and in a few months I lost about 20 lbs without trying. I even started a job in the middle of my senior year that was two miles from my home, and since I didn't drive, it wasn't unusual for me to walk to work and then stand for 6-8 hours.

A few weeks before my graduation, I had to have my gall bladder taken out. After that, I immediately lost a few more pounds and sizes. On my graduation day I was a size 13, which I hadn't been since I was in junior high.

That summer I got off the pills and started driving and slowly started gaining weight. Then my job closed, and I went a month without work, and sat around eating and gained a couple of those sizes back.

Well, that was six years ago, and I've gained about 50 pounds since I graduated high school.

I DO NOT LIKE IT.

I don't hate myself, but I am not thrilled by what I see. I can be better.

A couple summers ago I decided I really wanted to work out, and I used to walk to the community center gym and workout. When I started, I couldn't go a few minutes on an elliptical without needing water. After a while I noticed it got easier. I was proud of myself. Then I got off the bandwagon for a few months and the following January I joined 24 Hour Fitness. I worked out hardcore because I'm nocturnal and loved that I could go at midnight. I didn't lose weight, necessarily, but I was toning up. Others were noticing.

Again, I fell off the bandwagon, and here is the worst part. 10 months ago I started working AT A GYM. Perfect, right? I can work and work out. Except I don't work out there. Even worse, I still pay for my 24 Hour Fitness membership. I just don't want to give that up. I have gone sporadically. I used to work out daily...now I work out every few weeks or months.

I can't keep doing that.

I need to be consistent.

That is my plan - consistency. I've gotten back into everything the last few days, and I hope I don't quit again.

I don't want to lose weight just to lose weight or just for my health.

I want to be a paramedic with a fire department. I have to be able to pass the physical exam. That's another reason why I'm getting back into the gym. I've gotten stronger since I started working out two years ago, but I'm still weak. I've actually lost some of the ability I have gained over the years to lift. I can't lift as much as I could when I was working really hard.

I'm a female, and I want to be a firefighter/paramedic. There aren't many women in that field. It's tough, but I think I can do. I just have to get my butt moving.

My goal is to get to 135 lbs. That has more to do with military height/weight standards. I would be okay with weighing 150 again, but, since I'm already at it, what's another 15 lbs?

I have another goal, too. There's a charity ball in November that is special invite, and I am working to get invited. In fact, I was already told that I'd receive an invitation.

When/if I go, I want to look amazing. I want to be able to buy a gorgeous dress and look fabulous in it. It may sound silly, but I didn't go to my prom...I kinda want to make up for it.

If you've read this far, WOW.

Thank you!

Adrien

mommyaudie

Hi Adrien, I'm Autumn. I'm new as well. Add me if you like, I'd love to offer my support.