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justjen33
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Hi. I am Jennifer. I am 33 and very very overweight. I have 200 lbs to lose. Yep that is a huge number. I have been heavy since I was 5. Have tried to diet, failed repeatedly. I have two children who are 6 and 4. I am going to school to get my bachelor's in psychology and then on to my master's.
I have fought my weight for so long I had become pretty disillusioned about how really big I had become. I was with my kids dad for five years and have been single now almost three years. He was unfortunately emotionally and mentally abusive. So that being my first real relationship only compounded my worth issues. I was determined however to get out there and live life. I started online dating and it was ok. I met a guy a couple of weeks ago. Seemed to hit it off. He liked bigger women. Then I thought I should send him a full body pic of me.....well that went over like a lead balloon. He informed I was bigger than what he is attracted to but would like to stay friends.
Ouch that hurt....but as much as the truth hurts it heals too. I had not realized I had gotten as big as I am. So I resolved right there in that minute to never have to be turned down like that again...well at least not for being a size 26 anyway. I realized I was taking times away from my kids, and adding a burden to them in my later years if I did not do something NOW. that was last Wednesday. I got back on MFP (joined 9 months ago half heartedly). Started walking and rallied my friends behind me.
Something snapped in my brain. I want this, this being; a healthy body and healthy life more than I want junk food. I have a whole life ahead of me. One filled with activity and life. I have no illusions this will be easy. But nothing in life worth having is easy. So my goal is 200lbs gone by the time I graduate in 2014.
I have fought my weight for so long I had become pretty disillusioned about how really big I had become. I was with my kids dad for five years and have been single now almost three years. He was unfortunately emotionally and mentally abusive. So that being my first real relationship only compounded my worth issues. I was determined however to get out there and live life. I started online dating and it was ok. I met a guy a couple of weeks ago. Seemed to hit it off. He liked bigger women. Then I thought I should send him a full body pic of me.....well that went over like a lead balloon. He informed I was bigger than what he is attracted to but would like to stay friends.
Ouch that hurt....but as much as the truth hurts it heals too. I had not realized I had gotten as big as I am. So I resolved right there in that minute to never have to be turned down like that again...well at least not for being a size 26 anyway. I realized I was taking times away from my kids, and adding a burden to them in my later years if I did not do something NOW. that was last Wednesday. I got back on MFP (joined 9 months ago half heartedly). Started walking and rallied my friends behind me.
Something snapped in my brain. I want this, this being; a healthy body and healthy life more than I want junk food. I have a whole life ahead of me. One filled with activity and life. I have no illusions this will be easy. But nothing in life worth having is easy. So my goal is 200lbs gone by the time I graduate in 2014.
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You can do it Jen. Add me if you need support. This is a great place to find it.0
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You can do it!! If you need more friends feel free to add me. Love the support on MFP. Everyone here is so friendly and all here for the same reason.0
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That realization, no matter, how difficult, is life-changing. It's your turning point. Keep moving, and keep the faith. You CAN do it.0
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Congrats on taking the first step. WIth the mind set you are in right now - you WILL do this.
Feel free to add me for additional support and encouragement!!
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I know where you're coming from. I never saw myself as being as overweight as I am. I have 100 pounds to lose. I still don't till I look at pictures of me (OHHH IS THAT ME!). Yes it is. Time to realize that I'm only getting bigger if I continue to eat the way I am and not be responsible. This program really works if you are determined. Let's do it together. Offering all the support I can and taking all the support I can get. Here's to Us - we can do it!0
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Congrats on taking the first step. WIth the mind set you are in right now - you WILL do this.
Feel free to add me for additional support and encouragement!!
Welcome Back!!
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You can do this and your are worth it! You are your #1 fan! Great job wanting a healthier life! Add me if you would like.0
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I'm so sorry that happened to you, but I'm glad you found your motivation in it. Best of luck, you CAN do this!!0
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you got this hun!! Add me for some support, we are all here for you!0
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I have 100+ to lose-feel free to add me!!!0
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sometimes it takes that painful realization to really have the gumption to turn it all around. you've already made a giant step by both confronting the issue and signing up here! feel free to add me, i'm on a mission too!0
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Congrats Jen! That realization is a great NSV! You CAN do this and deserve it.0
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Stay positive! You can do this and there are a ton of people on MFP that can support you in your journey!0
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You can do this! Two years to lose 200 lbs will be a challenge (that's assuming you graduate in April 2014, not later in the year) but with dedication you can do this! Feel free to add me as a friend if you'd like the support!0
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That's the spirit! I like the passion you're coming at this with, just be careful not to flare up and burn out as so many do. Gentle, lifelong changes ftw!0
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You have taken the hardest and biggest step in this process. If you want support, please feel free to add me.0
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I will add you I have close to that to lose as well. Its going to be a journey, but it will be a journey of also discovering how worth it you are. Lets do it0
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WOW thanks to all of you! I know I am in the right place!0
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That's me as well... I look in the mirror and think it's not that bad...but it is. My family is suffering for it too. I want to grow old as healthy as possible! We can do it!0
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you can do it! The first step is the hardest, and you've conquered that. I'll add you.0
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