An evening on OWN and Half-ton programming

Sarahsmiles0875

Is this the right forum for this topic? This, I cannot be sure. Can I watch what some of those people are going through, and say that I become more motivated? Yes and no. I think that I can look to them and see the inclination to become someone who surpasses the half-ton marker. I have been that woman who uses food to satiate everything but hunger. I have used food! I have used food and blamed food and loved it, and loathed it, and wanted it all at the same time! This is an ugly marriage and I have to divorce all of those co-dependant behaviors I have grown accustomed to.
My evening watching an hour and a half of Half-ton+ individuals struggle leaves me so sad. Sad at the state of the world where convenience has surpassed wholesome. Where I would have rather stopped at a McDonald's for supper than spend 1/2 an hour preparing something for my family that would not only satiate them the same, but would also be healthier for them. I happen to be my own worst enemy and have taught that type of love/hate relationship with food to my child.
Do I need motivation? Everyday. I have a conversation with myself everyday. I am almost two weeks into MFP. I do feel like I am learning something new everytime I log in. This site is my Facebook. Only here, I am learning how to reconnect with myself. Like my own "like" button!