SBF2 Reboot Boogaloo July 2

mechanicmom

Good morning Pebbles!
I have a bit of a busy day ahead of me. I have to go grocery shopping and somehow fit everything in the budget. I have to go to at least three different stores and to a library or two. I wonder if Alex will be able to handle all that. Probably not. He's been having tantrums every morning. I also have to take some friends to the airport. I don't like the airport.
I am afraid. Afraid of failing and giving up on this diet before I even get started. Afraid of gaining back every pound that I might lose while on it. I am going to make better decisions this weekend but I don't think I will officially start until Monday since it's we will be at friends' houses this weekend. Breakfasts and snacks might be a problem since fruit isn't allowed, except rarely. I know that I will feel better on this diet, so I want to stick it out. It will be interesting to log the food and see just how much I am eating. Usually I am very excited about a new diet. I'm not this time. Maybe that's a good thing. Maybe I see the seriousness of needing to do it.
Anyway, rambling. I need to tweak the grocery list and get ready to go to the stores. Sorry I seem to be complaining this morning. Must be old age.
Shopping boogaloo!
MM

lotusfromthemud

Hi my pebbs,

I'm going to try to be quick here, as I need to leave the house soon.

Goals today:

Project work 1 hour: 1.5 hours already done

Workout: Bikram (that's what I need to leave the house soon for )

Eating: Clean and within daily calorie goal (last night I succumbed to a glass of wine and some baked tortilla chips with cheese, which put me 250 over goal, so I had a maintenance day, I guess)

Water (well on the way already there. . .:drinker: )

Oh, and today is my appointment with the nutritionist. I'll report back.

Take care.:flowerforyou:

cp005e

Too quiet around here. :ohwell: I hope Mary is having fun in CA, and WL in Detroit. Haven't seen Karen or AD around in a while.

This weekend I really need to spend some time thinking about my goals. I know I keep saying this. I really want the accountability of my chart back. I have NOT been eating well for the past month or more, and I'm pretty sure I've put a couple of pounds back on. I also don't seem to have good backup strategies for getting enough exercise in when my 'normal' routine is disrupted. The truth is, I haven't *had* a 'normal' routine for the past month or so, and that seems to have been my problem. So, I want to set up a schedule for exercise again, and I also want to get my eating back in line. I don't think I need to cut out anything in particular (except maybe diet soda) - just cut back and make better choices. I don't want to go back to counting, but maybe it would be a good idea this weekend just to see how far out of whack I have been getting.

MM, can you do things like carrot sticks or nuts for snacks? I remember most dairy was out, so yogurt and cottage cheese wouldn't work. Hummus? V, let us know how it goes with the nutritionist!

Edited to add: Summer rain boogaloo!

mechanicmom

Yes, I can have almonds and a few other nuts, and most veggies. I stocked up on raw almonds and carrots, cucumber, lettuce. I forgot the celery though. May need to go get some. I have to admit that I have spent the last two days enjoying some of the things I will not be eating for the next...who knows how long. I wish I could say I am looking forward to this but I am not. I am looking at it more as a medical necessity. Maybe that will help me stay motivated. My new motto: Do not fear, you shall not die. :laugh: It's not going to kill me to put my stomach in its place. It feels like it will but it won't.
It is too quiet. Kind of eerie.
Lonely boogaloo.
MM

lotusfromthemud

Just got back from the nutritionist. . .

it was just sort of a "get to know each other session". She gave me a big packet of forms to fill out. When I told her I was eating 1500 net calories a day and not losing she said "well, somethings up then. . .the engine's not using the fuel like it's supposed to." So, she's going to look at my patterns and try to figure out if I'm doing something that's preventing the engine from running like a well-oiled machine. I'm curious to see what her theory is. She mentioned a "normal, but not normal enough" thyroid or a liver issue from all the meds I used to take. I know my body has never looked the same since I was on steroids for a two-year period.

She also is a holistic nutritionist, so she told me that calories are not in her vocabulary (she doesn't discount them entirely). She also said that she welcomes the challenge of solving the mystery of someone at "my stage of the journey". Apparently, people come to her and say "I feel terrible" and then explain that they eat cheeseburgers and fries as the cornerstone of their diet (that's the example she used, and she said it's only a slight exaggeration).

Have no fear, MM. Between your rocks and your pebbles. . .you have lots of support! Think of it as being in training for having two young children. . .soon!