Emotional/binge/compulsive eating

I always fall off the wagon because of these things.. just when i think ive got a handle of it, i go and have a binge which leads to more and more compulsive eating. then i convince myself its ok because im already a healthy weight and only want to lose to look better. So i could stay the same weight and eat whatever, but i feel so fat and disgusting and im so sick of not being able to lose weight. I obsess about it constantly and hate looking at photos of myself. I feel so uncomfortable at this weight and 20lbs would make a huge difference.

I can't afford therapy and don't know what to do. I need to get to the bottom of why I do this and always self sabotage my weight loss. I go for a run instead of eating quite often but it's not always possible to do that and sometimes I just cant make myself do it.

As soon as i try to eat healthy I crave bad things like crazy, even dream about them and then just have to have them, then i binge on them. Allowing myself just one little bit of bad stuff doesnt work, i just cant do it, i have to have more. I dont think the "everything in moderation" thing can work for me. But I cant imagine going for the rest of my life never ever having chocolate or ice cream! Anyone else have this problem? How to get over it?

I have fallen off the wagon for about 2 months now, gained it all back but too scared to weigh myself. This cycle has been going on for years now and it needs to end once and for all. I will begin again tomorrow and hope that this time I can do it.

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  • I am going through the same thing. I would like to see what others have to say on this topic...
  • JDking22
    JDking22 Posts: 12 Member
    Denying yourself of foods you love could be causing the benges as well as emotional stuff. I know that i have gained 10lbs and i felt awful about it sunday because some one mistook this weight gain (which happens to be all in my tummy) for me being pregnant. I had a pitty party for 20 mins then went on a family hike and let me tell u i felt way better after the hike than i would have if i would have eatin all the ice cream and junk i couold find which is what i felt like doing. Food addiction is a real thing and just like drug addicts it takes time, paticents, a higher power, admiting theres a problem, and learning to love your self to fix it. I know thats a lot to do but if u start one step at a time you will get there. Positive self talk is very important you can tell your self things like you are worth being healthy, that you love your self and you are important even if you dont feel that way at first one day those words will true. TCBY has awesome frozen yougart in the walart freezer section and those cracker chips really do help the potato chip craving with WAY less guilt. I hate to exercise but if going on a hike means i can burn 600+ callories and go to my favorite resturant and eat what ever i want then im all in. Diet with out some kind of exercise just makes u mad well at least makes me mad and obsessive about callorie counting which is no fun. So basicaly to sum this all up add fiber drink more water limit portions not foods and most importantly LOVE YOURSELF!!!!
  • lexxlowe
    lexxlowe Posts: 3 Member
    Thanks so much for your advice. I have just realised it''s going to be a long process like when i quit smoking..