Any Long Arm Gastroplasty Patients from the 90's out there?

mmshelties

I am a long arm gastroplasty patient from 1998 that had great success from having the surgery 12 years ago.
In these past 4 years threw a lot of bad and hard issues in my life I have gained back 83lbs. I am looking to possiably
have a revision done to have the lap band put in. thus being adjustable as needed to avoid having surgery again if need be.
I am trying to loose the weight threw partial meal replacements now. My husband, I remarried 2 years ago, doesn't want me to have the surgery again. He was not with me the first time I had , had it. So I am trying to loose weight threw this weight loss center that uses Optifast. It is very expensive and my health insurance is one of the best they have seen. It doesn't cover the expensive meal replacements threw there center. I am thinking of doing it on my own and try to loose the weight without surgery. Anyone out there experiencing the same thing ? I have more on my profile of the process and what I have been going threw. I just feel like such a failure and disgusting .... I just wonder anyone else out there going threw this and what they are doing ?????