its time to lose weight

hi, im kind of new. i signed up weeks ago, logged on a few times and that was it. i kind of skinny but not as big as i am now. however in my head im not big, because most of my life i was smaller. in the apt i live in now we dont have mirrors except for the head mirror in the bathroom, so when i see myself in a door mirror or a picture, i am so shocked at how i look. i want to go back. i dont like going shopping for clothes, because nothing fits right. i cant fit my old clothes, and i dont like dressing up. its getting to the point where i dont want to go anywhere, because i dont look right in my clothes. its time to lose weight or im just going to start to sink in low self-esteem.