Where in the world did my motivation go?

HelloSunshine

Ahh!

It's been a really long and strange month for me. At the end of June I was down 10 lbs and feeling great. Then the 30th of June came along and that is normally the time when mother nature comes to visit me but she didn't. I have months where I am a couple days late so I just let it go and 8 days later... nothing. So naturally I took a test and it said no. So I kept waiting.... July 15 (Two weeks late) still nothing so I take another test and still says no. So I started reading all these things online about women who have really low pregnancy hormones and a at home test didnt pick up anything until they were almost 3 months pregnant so me and the fiance started planning and acting as if I could be pregnant. No Drinking, No Smoking and I just let myself fall victim to all the nasty food cravings I was having so imagine my disappointment when 2 days ago (only 18 days late!!) I finally got my visit from mother nature. So I went over 1/2 a month of giving in to every single food craving and not doing too much strenuous exercise and I finally got up the nerve to get on the scale and I was UP 12 lbs!!!!! Not only did I gain back the 10lbs of progress that I made but MORE! I am so mad and disappointed with myself.

Now today I am trying to get back onto my schedule of making sure to eat only within my limits for the days and to do my p90x workouts everynight but it is such a drastic change from what I have been doing this last 19 days that its almost like starting brand new. Its so hard to get myself motivated again.... other then having my "fat" jeans.... fitting better

Sorry.... had to rant :explode:

moujie

I feel your pain sister! we tried to get pregnant for a year. each month I'd think I was sure I would be pregnant so hey...why not have that extra helping/snack/bowl of ice cream/you name it. so instead of getting pregnant...I got fat. :grumble: tell me if that doesn't make you more depressed. I know I wasn't supposed to eat for two even if I'd been pregnant but I used that as an excuse and used food for comfort every time I got my period and realized I wasn't. but I've been working out and eating right since about January...lost about 20lbs (not sure what my starting weight really was) and I feel much much better. oh and we're going to adopt now so I no longer feel depressed that I didn't get pregnant.

don't worry about the gain. You will lose it again. Keep positive!!

HelloSunshine

I am going to try really hard to loose it back its just uber frustrating and even worse.... after I posted that I looked at my ticker that once said " 10lbs lost" and now sadly it says "0 lbs lost" !!!!!!!!!!!

Thats the worst way EVER to start a Monday

riveraphx

don't worry you did it once you can do it again. and just remember counting your calories is a good tool whether you're pregnant or not. you would be surprised how little additional calories you need to consume daily once you are pregnant. I think a female with a diet of 1800 calories a day only needs 400-600 additional calories, and you definitely want to make those calories healthy ones. I don't plan on starting a family for another 3 years :-( but after how well i have been doing on MFP i really want to maintain my healthy lifestyle while pregnant.

but once again, don't be too hard on yourself, from what you said, I would definitely think i was pregnant too. Good luck!