Looking for friends, need motivation and a kick in the butt

Hi all. I am fairly new here. I would like to lose around 50 pounds. I have very little support at home. My husband likes me plump so that he is not forced to deal with his own insecurity and jealousy. I have allowed that for way too long. It is time I do what I need to do for me and my health. I am looking for friends who will offer support as well as a swift kick in the butt when I need it. My diary is open to friends and I appreciate feedback as I need all the help I can get. Thanks.