Starting (again...continuing?)

JaneNoir

Hello!

SO happy I've found MFP. I am 31yo and a mother of 7yo boy/girl twins :-) I have personally had THE worst last 7 months of my entire life, and finally tipped the scales over 300lbs. Currently, I am down to 290lbs after almost two weeks. I am 5'9". My goals are to transition (back) into a healthy lifestyle and to bask in all the positives that will bring to me in the long term. I have been battling depression chronically for the last 5 years, and feel the lifestyle I had during this time is a result and a contributing factor to my gains. What a double edge sword it is. When I looked doen and saw the scale telling me I made it up over 300lbs, I knew it was time. I have had enough of feeling so badly all the time, and I'm exhausted trying to hide my sadness from my beautiful happy family. I've decided to (gulp) add myself back on the list of important things, now that the twins are so involved in their own things and less dependent on me for everything. It's a really hard transition for me and akward to put myself on the list of imporantces, let alone at the top. I know that if I succeed this time, EVERYONE will benefit. Where I've fallen before is by not surroundling myself with positive, motivated people that I can seep inspiration from on my "woe is me" days. Please friend me if you think you can help, I am terrible at asking for things for myself! I am hoping that my depression and anxiety will resolve once I regain control over this very personal side of my life.

I have taken my "before" pics, I hope I get the chance to use them in the coming months when I post with successful updates!! Thanks for listening!!

JaneNoir

....and I type too fast, and make many typos, apparently! So. many. flaws. :-)