Eating Disorder Support and Questions

crumbsofcookies

Hi,

My name is Sophie. I had an eating disorder in high school, but I recovered and have been mostly okay for about three years. However, in the last couple months, the urge to return to my previous habits has been unbearably strong and for the last few weeks I've found myself consuming about 400 - 600 cals a day.

But I don't WANT to be like that again! I joined this website hoping someone could help me... I really want cookies, for example. But I know that the moment I eat one, I'm going to hate myself. How do I not hate myself for eating carbs?

Is it okay to eat grains like pasta and bread and cookies? I've been living off lettuce and apples, and I want to change. But I don't know how.