50lb + down and 109lb to go and Terrified

kaliena22

So yesterday I weighed in....... drum roll.... hit the 52lb loss. It was a wonderful feeling, yes but terrifying. I tried just not caring - no biggie just another weigh in but of course everyone around me celebrated the milestone. The problem is I still have so far to go and I have been here before. ....I've been here before and failed. I've rewarded myself for the losses and once and then again, and again.... and then oops cheated might as well give up.

I this time is different!!!! This time I feel no pressure, I am just going to keep going and ................... hmmm I hope make it - go the distance.

But something keeps nagging at me...Am I going to sabotage my efforts now that people notice the weight loss?

What the heck am I scared of ? Being thin, being fit?

CALIECAT

Don't be scare just keep coming to this site and talk about your fears. We are here to help you. It has been a great place for me. 50 lb loss is fantastic. You can do it. Calie

Shanta1983

wooo hooo thats awesome keep up the great work:bigsmile: :flowerforyou:

ivykivy

Congratulation on reaching the 50lb mark! I think we all have our fears and anxiety of what will be. I had problems in my early teen years of being oogled because of fast development so I can understand about having a fear of being too sexy :bigsmile: . You will achieve your goal and you will learn to be comfortable in your own skin. This journey is not only a weight loss journey but one of spiritual growth also.

Again Congratulations:flowerforyou:

shansd

i know exactly what you mean, I have just hit the 50 lb mark as well, with my original goal being 60 lbs i never really thought that i could do it. Now that it is in reach i know that my actual goal is much farther and i find that terrifying.
The pressure goes up to continue, to not falter, to keep this weight off and more.
I am scared of being small and fit knowing that i am fully capable of being the opposite.
It has opened so many feelings of shame for what i was and fear of becoming so much more than i thought i could be. and who will i be then? can i be the same?
i don't know
but please celebrate what you have done for yourself!!!! and this new person that you are actively being and know that your body will catch up to your mind just keep at it!!!!

1Sweets

I haven't reached my successful limit as you all have but I kinda know that when you think you hit a partial loss, which for me was always the 20 lb mark that Ta Da the game is over now I can go back to pigging out.

What I don't want to hear is...."Wow you were really fat there before" people don't realize that just because your not as fat as before that those words still hurt very very much....because they think they have to right to be included in your weight journey:noway:

Not sure if this is what you meant but it is my fear when I reach my goal. But you look fantastic & I'm very happy for you with how far you have come.....don't stop now! :drinker: