I'm afraid to go back to old habits?

Prettylittledieter

I used to be an anorexic, then I recovered. After that came depression and I started over eating. Now I'm over weight and I just want to be healthy, but every time I try to lose the weight I fall back into anorexic behaviors. I usually start off good and healthy, but after a week or so I make myself quit because I try to lose weight in the wrong ways (just not eating). If I have a busy day and don't have time to exercise I just won't eat to make up for calories I should have burned off. I know it's unhealthy, and every time I feel myself slipping back into the "anorexic state" I make myself stop.

I really want to get fit, but now I can't even look at a treadmill without worrying about overdoing it and becoming obsessed again. Has anyone else gone through anything like this or have any advice?