Hey you there in the mirror, yeah you!

misty3127

2 weeks in on my working out and I have lost 8lbs total. (that is including going out to Benihanas and having drinks with a friend and indulging at the cheesecake factory from their skinnylicious menu). So, all in all I don't think that is too bad. I figure at that rate I could lost 15-18 pounds in a month. I don't know about you but I could be okay with those figures.

Sometimes I think we forget that it takes a long time of bad habits and eating wrong to put all the weight on. Then when we start trying to take it off we don't understand why it takes so long to work it off and we get frustrated and dissapointed. As much as I would like to think it does...my fat doesn't just melt away if I don't eat a peice of cheesecake. It's not easy to get my butt in the gym and sweat, workout and work my tush. I get unmotivated and discouraged as much as the next girl (or guy). But in the end I am pretty tired of having lived the last half of my life overweight and uncomfortable.

I was at the gym a few days ago and started noticing something that made me a bit embarassed. A cute guy walked in while I was doing some workouts on the arm machines. As soon as he glanced my way and looked at me funny I became so self aware and embarassed. I found myself trying to sit straighter and taller in my seat (taller..like that's going to happen ahahh) as if that is going to make my tummy flatter and me appear less sweaty and grunty! I was pulling my shirt down more and trying to fluff it out a bit to hide my rolls. Now don't get me wrong, I am married and wasn't attracted to this guy in the least but just his mere presence made me feel this way. I also feel like this when there are super fit skinny girls working out. Like I am almost embarassed to be working out. But how else are we supposed to get healthier?? We have to start somewhere! When I noticed myself feeling like that I immediately scolded myself and was embarassed that I felt that way about myself! Why should I feel like that when I am working my tail off just like he is. So what if I look like a little red sweaty piggy! Soon I will be svelte and leaner than I have ever been and it will have all been worth it. It just goes to show you how deep down sometimes we are ashamed of ourselves and our looks but we may not want to ever admit it to ourself. I figure I better face up to that image in the mirror if I am ever going to change.