Back Again

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I haven't been on since January of this year. I have made a commitment to myself to stick to this daily for the next 21 days. It takes 21 days to break or make a habit. I have failed in the past due to allowing my emotions to control me. I have suffered extreme dark periods since the loss of my spouse in April 2011 and to compound the problem, I resigned from my job in September 2011. I have been living off my savings and it has run out. I have a small annuity monthly that will sustain me for now.

Since my husband's diagnosis and then death, I have gained 40+ pounds and I am now at a record high of 269.6. He would be so disappointed in me. I was doing so good at working out and following my program before his diagnosis. I was walking 3 miles five times a week and weighed 224, but I was losing.

Until today, I have done nothing physically and binged alot. I made a promise to myself and I am going to do all I can to keep that promise, because I am still here and I am worth it.