Loving Who I Am

lruff1987

So after years of loathing and despising myself no matter how much weight I lost or how much exercise I fit into a day/week/month, I decided I needed to work on how I view myself. I realized that in order to be successful at weight loss and fitness, I had to love who I am and stop beating myself up all of the time. So I stopped all of the grueling workouts that made me miserable, I stopped freaking out everytime I ate 1 calorie more then my daily allotment, and I started looking at the things I love about myself. I've been working on this for awhile now and suddenly realized that I've really changed. I feel good at the beach in my bikini, I feel confident when I look in the mirror, and I feel more motivated then ever to treat my body right. I want to exercise and I want to eat right, instead of forcing myself to do these things.

I just had to share this because I'm really excited about these changes!

yoovie

I was so happy the day I got to that point as well. I was never the girl that could say nice things to herself int eh mirror as a positive ritual.

But I was the girl that woke up one morning and realized that, after everything we'd been through together, I did have a relationship with my body. A real one. I was protective of her. She was more than just tupperware© for my soul. She was someone I'd been working toward my goals along side for a very long time. Sometimes I rewarded her, sometimes she rewarded me and the same went for punishment and discipline and control.. we seesaw back and forth taking care of each other.

This led to another thing that happened that has changed my life. it was always very hard to take compliments, or to think highly of myself. I thought it meant I was becoming vain, a serious concern of mine, a real tangible fear that got bigger the better my body started to look.

So I found a word I could embrace that didnt seem like I thought I was better than others, and I embraced that word 100%, my body and I both did.

Im shiny. And that's the truth, and its ok, and its undeniable and i will NEVER feel bad about it or try to hide it. There is nothing wrong with being shiny.

I think everyone should own their own word.

yoovie

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RandyMosley

Your story holds true to 99% of everyone that struggles with their weight and health. I am one of those people that feels great for the weight loss but not so sure I accomplished anything anyone else couldn't. It seems you have welcomed liking yourself and the change in your health has tagged along for the ride. I have accomplished losing 60lbs and have 40 more to go for my ultimate goal. I have to come to liking myself over losing the weight because now it's a struggle that is getting close to beating me where I can lose all that I've gained. You are an inspiration to me and I'll continue the fight in hopes to be a better and healthier me. Thanks for your story