The Ugly Side Of Eating Disorders

HealthierAndFitterMe

i just had a realization today ; so today i went to an amusement park @ the beach & i absolutely love amusement parks&rides , especially the extreme ones & so of course me&my friend went on one of the extreme ones & i didn't like it . why ? because of the fact that i'm "skinny" , i felt like i was gonna fall out & i became scared of the ride & hated the ride . that's NOT me . & i went on a few other rides & they hurt my bones went they jerked around , because of the fact that some of my bones stick out . 2nd realization ; i've been having lots of binges down here at the shore & so i just ate massive candy & went running , which i love & do quite often . as i ran i felt sick , extremely sick & bloated . i felt UNHEALTHY . & i'm still sick with diarrhea . it's awful . the point of this is that i've realized how much my many eating disorders have affected my life . i feel like i can't do stuff i use to love . i'm unhealthy & these eating disorders have affected me inside&out . thinness , to a point of where you're underweight & doing it unhealthy , is NOT everything . it's not beauty . it's not personallity . it's not healthy . it's not anything . it's nothing . it's brokeness . it's hurtful . it's controlling . it's emptiness . beauty is not personallity . beauty fades , personallity stays . healthiness is where it's at . everybody is beautiful . YOU are beautiful , just how you are now , & don't let anybody or yourself tell you otherwise .

snowbab

This is completely true. ED's just halt your life in a point of nothingness. It's such a waste! I absolutely love those last few words. Thank you so much for putting so many feelings into such wise words