nothing is happening!

gdbadass

Well, "nothing" is a bit of an exaggeration. I am feeling stronger. I do leave my workouts feeling healthy, calmer and increasingly accomplished.

But the scale isn't budging, my measurements are static, and my clothes still fit the same.

I am a diabetic, and have probably gained and lost hundreds of pounds throughout my lifetime, so maybe my body is just "holding on", thinking I am bingeing or going through some chemical transition. I have taken various pharmaceuticals in the past that caused weight loss or gain, so perhaps my metabolism is stuck from formerly being in overdrive.

Nonetheless: I am really frustrated.

Tomorrow I will weigh myself so I will know officially, but I am dreading it. My ideal weight is around 135, and as of last weigh-in, I am at 201. I'm uncomfortable in my body at this size.

Five weeks ago I cut out all bread, rice, alcohol, added sugars, potatoes, etc. I have further refined my diet, with the help of MFP, to reduce carbs down to under 100g per day for the past few days, and into the future. I'm not starving - I feel good, though my calorie intake isn't high - between 1200-1500 after factoring in exercise. I have no problem changing that if it's too low or high - I am all about what works best.

I do a short Yoga routine every morning, and I swim laps at the pool for at least 25 minutes, usually more, although I am just getting back into shape so that isn't continuous. It hasn't been that long, I know, just a few weeks for the exercise routine. But every day I get stronger, go loner distances, improve my stroke - so I feel like I should be seeing results!

I won't quit, but I just needed to share this feeling with people instead of keeping it to myself. If anyone has any words of wisdom I'd appreciate it.

Thanks, Lotus D.