Getting Serious!

Mamafitness15

Hi everyone
Ok, so I had my little bundle of joy 5 weeks ago, and even though I have been trying to eat healthy (for the most part), I haven't been getting serious about it. I am exclusively breastfeeding right now, so I know I can't actually reduce my calories too drastically, but I know I need to really watch it if I want to drop the last 14 pounds. Next Tuesday i go in for my 6 week check up at which time I should get the go to start exercising again (I had a c-section). i have been really down lately because I still have a belly, and I thought it would start going down more, but it is just hanging around. I know I need to give it time, but it really depresses me. I should say, that i have battled with body issues my whole life, and have dealt with bulimia since I was 15. I have never really been overweight, having been in the Navy for 8 years, but I have always looked at myself in a negative light. I have been doing good with the bulimia, and I think I have it under control now, but when i look in the mirror, I still get so depressed with my body- especially my tummy
I'm not posting on here for pitty, I just think i will feel better if I get this off my chest, because i don't like to talk about it with my husband and family, because they don't like to hear about it. I love how supportive everyone is on here, and this sight helped me so much to lose the weight with my first child (also by c-section). So, on a positive note, i am really going to watch my diet and once I can start working out I am going to start up P90X. I know i can do it, I just need to start thinking more positive, and any support would be much appreciated, because I have seen some real inspirations on here, and i hope some day i can be one too.