My past/motivational talk?

tashaa1992

Hi I'm tasha, I'm twenty and I'm recovering from purging type anorexia(think most of you know that about me now though, I openly talk about it lol).

I was first diagnosed when I was six, I have spent my life in and out of hospital and I never really had a chance to experience 'normal' life. I started purging when I was sixteen, and I have wasted years of my life on this disorder. I never really attended primary school because of being in the hospital and in secondary school, I was only in year seven for less than two months before being taken out again. I didn't get a chance to go to prom like everyone else my age and I didn't do my gcse's.

When I decided to go to college four years ago, I wasn't sure why I was doing it or if I was even smart enough to succeed because after all I didn't really know anything did I! I started college with no gcse's and left with eight. I struggled alot in college, they gave me extra help, I hated it, I felt like I was being favoured and it felt wrong, I didn't want help to succeed but I accepted anyway. When I left college, I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, I wasn't trying to recover and life felt like it was meant to be miserable. I thought things couldn't get any worse, I didn't want to be here anymore, I was putting everyone through so much pain and it wasn't worth it, I overdosed, got taken in and I was sectioned in september 2011. Things started to change this time, I was opening up about my past and things I didn't know I felt were coming to light. What triggered the anorexia was my dad abusing us then leaving, but I never knew how much it affected me. After that moment though, things finally started to look up slowly.

I was discharged in february this year, and from talking about my future in counselling I realised I wanted to work in a nursery. I applied for a job and a week later jo called me in for an interview, I did a trial. The day after my trial she asked if I could come back for another day, I did and after that day she offered me the job. I have been in outpatient recovery for six months now, and it is the longest I have ever managed to stick with it. I have been in my job for six months and I'm now doing an apprenticeship. My manager and tutor know about the anorexia, and I have been offered extra support but I know I don't need it, I have almost finished my apprenticeship, I will be finishing at the end of next month and I did all the coursework by myself, I'm achieving this by myself! I am starting level three as soon as I've done this one, at hopefully by the end of next year I will be a fully qualified nursery nurse. I never thought I would ever get to this point in my life, I didn't think I would achieve anything but now look at me!

It's not as good as what some people can achieve but I am still so proud of myself, I think it shows how strong I am.

My point of this was to show someone, even one person that ANYTHING is possible. Slip ups happen but we learn from them, we get better at avoiding them by knowing what made us fall to begin with. Battles are there for you to overcome so fight till you win your health, happiness. Your health is the most important thing, forget about those trying to derail you, do what you've gotta do. If I can do it, so can you.

sagetracey

Congratulations on your success!

The only thing I could take issue with in your whole inspirational story is when you say "It's not as good as what some people can achieve"! BS, it's not! It is so much better than so many people can achieve and you have done it. You have developed a great outlook on life. Enjoy.

clairyfairy247

This is an amazingly inspirational story.

Well done to you for defying the odds and turning your life around. I'm very proud and privileged to have you on my friends list.

tashaa1992

Congratulations on your success!

The only thing I could take issue with in your whole inspirational story is when you say "It's not as good as what some people can achieve"! BS, it's not! It is so much better than so many people can achieve and you have done it. You have developed a great outlook on life. Enjoy.

Thank you:) You have no idea how much your comment means to me:) xxx

tashaa1992

This is an amazingly inspirational story.

Well done to you for defying the odds and turning your life around. I'm very proud and privileged to have you on my friends list.

Thank you so much:) I know we don't really talk but I saw your thread earlier and I just wanted to say you're amazing, your one quote has really stuck with me, it is not easy but it is worth it, soo true! xxx

monica2434

Amazing...........I got a little teary-eyed reading your story...............I hope Nursing also helps bring a sense of fulfillment and joy into your life, as your journey to become healthier has. Good luck in your career and LIFE............thanks for sharing.