Back on the Wagon

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So I fell off the wagon for a bit. I haven't gained any weight since I joined MFP way back when, but I haven't lost either. On the one hand it's nice to know I am at a point where I can maintain my current weight loss but I'm definitely eager to start losing more.

I think this is less a 'please motivate me' post and more a me holding myself accountable and also airing my dirty little not trying to be healthy anymore secret. HAHA.

I'd say the point when I gave up on the whole trying actively to lose weight thing was the day my doctor informed me he couldn't help me with some health issues I've been having (basically he said my metabolism is **** and I won't feel better until I improve it and that was hard since I'd been eating healthy and exercising my *kitten* off for nearly a year and somehow my metabolism was still **** according to him. That statement solidified my decision to drop the gym. Why go if it wasn't making me feel better?). At that point I set down the watching what I eat mentality and just ate what I wanted when I wanted with little regard to fat content, calories, etc.

Anyway, I'm going to try and get back into exercising. I'm still struggling with feeling like it's a waste of time because I end up feeling physically worse when I'm exercising but I'm going to try anyway. I'll be focusing more on muscle building then cardio though. The one thing my doctor did say is that cardio is a waste of time when it comes to metabolism and I have to train like a man.

And please don't say if it's making me feel worse I'm doing it wrong because I know I'm working just as hard as I should be. I did have a trainer. Bottom line is if you have to lose sleep to get exercise into your schedule you're going to feel like **** and with my work schedule losing sleep is the only way to incorporate exercise into my schedule. So I guess I just have to be a zombie until I can settle down with just one job and exercise without losing sleep.

And wow have I ranted! Haha. Sorry guys. Just got a lot of frustration built up.

Reigning in my eating habits isn't going to be hard. I'm an old pro at that. What is going to be hard is sticking to exercise when it feels so fruitless.

If you would like to try and help motivate this very discouraged girl some success stories would help? Particularly in regards to how exercise helped with health issues? Ah, I think I'll just go read the success stories section and hope for some inspiration.

In the meantime I will be avoiding the doctor at all costs. :frown: I'm really starting to hate doctors.

OH! But I have a small good thing to report. I was having some pretty intense problems with stomach pain. It constantly felt like something had died and was rotting in the pit of my stomach. After many doctor visits with the doc brushing me off and telling me to eat clean BLAH BLAH, I grabbed some Zantac and problem solved. Yeah for modern medicine?

PS: Wow! I didn't realize I swore so much. Haha.

LJCannon

:flowerforyou: I am a nurse and I feel about most Drs just like you do. Avoid them at all costs. You know your own body better than anyone, it might just take you a little while to learn to listen and understand what it is telling you.

When I joined the gym (Curves), my goal wasn't to lose weight I had given up even trying after years of failed diets. I had such bad knee pain and shortness of breath that I was only months away from being in a wheelchair. I was hoping that the hydraulic machines would improve the range of motion in my knee and--best case scenario--improve my endurance.

It has been 7 months and I have lost weight and increased my endurance and my pain is nearly gone. Last night I went to Wal-Mart with my 29 year old son and was able to keep up with him as we walked across the parking lot and through the store. We were both giggling like children when we got to the check-out and I was not even breathing hard.

With consistancy and determination, even someone who has never been able to lose weight CAN succeed. Using the tools available on this website is a big help.

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Thank you for your response/story.

Honestly I wish my mother could keep up with me! Often times when we hang out together I have to take care of her because she tires out so easy (no medical reason, she's just quite overweight and doesn't exercise beyond walking from the couch to the bathroom to the kitchen to bed). I can't help but think we'd have so much more fun if she could walk around a bit more.

Good for you by the way!

Weight loss is easy enough, getting in shape is a hundred times harder.

LJCannon

I was just like your Mom 8 months ago. My mother still is like that--she is going to Curves 4 times a week, though. She is overweight in spite of having had her stomach stapled back in 1990. The surgery did not really help her lose any weight. She has several health issues now--too much to go into right now-but we can hope that when your Mom sees you getting healthier it will inspire her to do it also.