Need some help with those last 5-10 lbs!!!

GeekGirlRunning

I've been using Mfp since October 2011 pretty much every day with the exception of some vacation time. I've done pretty well so far and have lost 61 lbs. (although I do have to admit that I've purposely not weighed myself the last two weeks because I'm afraid of what it said. I started off at 186 (size 16+) and am now at 125 and am fitting in sizes 4 and 6 depending on the clothing. I'm 5 ft 1 in. I also joined a gym and go between 3 and 4 times a week, including time with a trainer each week for some help with strength training because I'm clueless. Other than that I usually do the treadmill on the highest incline at about 3.8 mph for an hour each time. I never eat back my burned calories because I didn't realize I was supposed to until I just read the forums tonight. Yeah, I know, I should've visited the community sooner!

So here's my problem: I'm finding it harder and harder to stick to my calorie goal the closer I get to the end of this. I'm desperately afraid of gaining all of this weight back. After years and feeling badly about myself it feels great,although somewhat embarrassing, to have people tell me how great I look. I do not want to go back to the person I was. Today I decided to skip the gym and then ate half a pizza. I went 686 over the 1200 goal Mfp set for me. That is the worst I've been, but I'm consistently in the red 100 or 200 points the past few weeks. I also am super annoyed myself for "failing" on days like this.

If I didn't lose anything else I'd be happy, but I just want to be able to say I reached that 120 goal I set for myself. I just wonder if I've gone about as far as I can go or if it's just the most stubborn plateau I've had yet!