bariartic? dont do it until you read my intro

cinziapalumbo

I can't print what I think of that Dr. *#%?#@!%!
In 1988 I was up to 215# after having my only daughter at 37. I felt ashamed, I hid, I was an emotional eater, my husband at the time was looking elsewhere, I was stressed from a buisness I ran with him...I wanted my life back & body back. My family doc reluctantly referred me (after failing with phentermine etc) and I went to a Dr. *kitten* who told me basically I was hopeless without bariatric surgery. In the end, in order to get the surgery covered by insurance, he told me to put coke cans in my clothes to make the weigh in of 225. At that I should have run out but my self esteem was soo low I would have jumped off a bridge. I had the surgery, suffered 9 days in hospital & horrible scar from total bypass. In the first year I went to 170# but looked great. Surprise....the insurance weight guidlines were way off. I weighed 145 in my youth & starved myself to be 5'8" 125#. :-(
170# was great...lots of compliments, fit into nice clothes, husband looked at me again. Problem was I was resentful of those who turned their backs on me when I was fat. Also, I could no longer tolerate raw veggies, meats, firm fish.....and I was soo hungry I started eating toast....to soothe my stomach and to soothe my emotions again. I gained weight. After every leg surgery (thank you husband #1 for beatings) I gained 20# & lost 10. See where this is going? I'll save you years of struggle. When I joined this MyFitnessPal a few months ago, I was 253 # at 60 yrs old. Just prior I had an upper GI to make sure my "pouch" was still ok. I had gone for an evaluation to undergo a re-do of my bariatric surgery. The Dr. at University of Washington told all of us at the informational seminar we would be instructed to maintain a 1000 calorie diet for 6 months before surgery, work with a nutritionist etc. I was the smallest of the people there. I realized the only reason surgery works is pain & trouble eating anything but liquids & grueling for the first test. After, if you don't really have a grip on nutrition etc. you gain back more than you started with. There were a lot of people who did that.
Anyway, my goofy friendly Dr. who told me my pouch & prior surgery from '88 was just fine and what about trying to just not eat a little less every day? I looked at him and before I could loose my temper and get defensive, I saw what he was trying to say. We talked an hour...he cared & explained that if I could substitute a easy to digest proties snack for the toast....like string cheese, I could find I'm less famished. He also confirmed I needed b 12 injections (I give myself) because I had mal-obsorbsion issues.
He digested counting calories with an app. because its easier.

I did these simple things. No pills, no diet, I just started plugging in what I ate, lost my bulimia, I'm feeling better with lower carbs, higher protien and I have become VERY AWARE of my nutrition.

Since I started using this app I have lost 32# and continue to loose a pound or two a week.

I should NEVER have let them modify my perfectly designed body, and neither should any of you get modified. It hurts you in the long run & a vitamin pill will never make up for it!

Call me if you need to talk. First email me at cjcseattle@ yahoo.com

I don't know if this will ever get read but it felt damned good getting in my 10 cents.

Love,
Cynthia