About Me: well my name is Cher'rie, and.....

CherBear1968

I have stuggled all my life with weight issues.:embarassed: So in 2002 I had an RNY surgery. I lost a great deal of weght at that time. I went from 346 lbs back down to 180 lbs. I was healthy active and happy.:happy:

Then in 2008 I was struck by a car while riding my bicyble:frown: , and I broke my back in 3 places. I had to have my back operated on to be able to walk again. For months at a time I was totally immoblized and unable to do the 2 hours of excersise required to maintain my weight-loss.:grumble: So now I am back to 310 Lbs :explode: So here I go again trying to do it the slow way this time!

I hate This because It is twice as hard to do this, because of the pain! Just venting now but it makes me mad:mad: I was not at fault this driver was to old and should not have been driving in the first place, Here I am having to deal with this consequences of his bad choice,!!!:grumble:

Anyway , now to stop the whining and face the reality that I am where I am and get for real.:ohwell:

Why I am here actually is I really need a buddy willing to check in on me from time to time and if you don't see me logging in email me and ask me where I been and how I am doing.

It will sure help to know someone cares about my goals besides my husband... who wants to take it over and :::Push push push:devil: I don't need that I just need gentle reminders to remember to update my journals.

Girls plz tell me I am not alone ...:noway: when my spouse him to death: reminds me to journal.... It :indifferent: doesn't help because it starts to feel more like he is nagging me.

What I really need is just someone to say hey did you check in to mfp today. Not Are you drinking your water,,,, whay didn't you do it..... You know you have to be consistent....don't you even care that I want you to Live a long life with me not die way before yor time That feels more like emotional blackmail to me,,,

I think unless someone has been here , has faced years of trying... and frankly years of failing. Good greif I even cut my digestive system apart trying to change this.... and to be right back here is frankly depressing and discouraging,

I will not cut myself up again. :noway: I simply have to find a way to do it the slow old fashioned way.

But I need some hope... I'll tell you that much if this is really gonna work... I need to at least attempt to believe it will really work!

So... after all of this would anyone care to befriend me?

I sure hope so. cause I need some female to come along beside me and hope when I can't fully hope right now that things could be different for me.

rocketass99

You are definatly not alone! Friend me if you like. Its a slow journey, but after everything you have been through, you deserve to be good to yourself and your family.