new yrs resolution in july...

So, if you really know me, you already know that....

-i love my kidlets and family more than life itself, but dont always love myself as much as i should.

-i eat french fries on my hamburgers (dont knock it till you try it, lol...)

-i believe almost every meal can be made that much more awesome with salt beef and gravy.

-i believe cooking for someone is exactly the same as telling them that you love them.

-rowing was my life and love which has been in recent yrs replaced by loud and fast cars. :-P

-i believe stress can be fixed by a good tune on the radio played on crank and sang along to, no matter how badly.

-i like to and NEED to help those close to me, no matter what.

-im a big softie...i cry at movies, along with certain songs, childrens cartoons and spca commercials.

-im terrible at taking my own advice.

-my worst personal trait is sometimes my best too....stubborness.

-i believe cooking with a bottle of wine open is therapeutic

-i secretly love 'lucky charms' cereal. :-)

-my biggest fear is something bad happening to my kids, closely followed by rejection.....and spiders. ugh. hate those things.

-i believe every girl needs at least one pair of wicked high heels in a great color....instant confidence.

-when all else fails....i just want to dance!

-i have very very few friends, but i know who i can count on and they can count on me for anything

-i love my dog..even when he eats my good shoes. too cute to get mad at.

-nothing beats open car windows, a sunny day and a highway....destination optional

Im now 35....life in general for me hasnt always been easy, in fact sometimes it has downright sucked. As it has for everyone at times i guess. I was young when i had my son, in a crappy relationship made crappier by an ugly seperation. But out of that seperation I built a really great relationship with my now 13 yr old son who in my eyes is the best, most respectful, caring, talented young man I could want. Single mommyhood was never easy, but we made it. Jobs have come and gone....friends and loves have come and gone....back to school for a spell....made my own work when necessary. Postpartum depression....twice. Long story short is that things always worked out.....as long as you are willing to put the work in. Ill admit......I have been lazy at times, not taken care of me, stressed over crap i cant do anything about....but worried about it all the same. My 35th bday just passed...and it was prob the worst one Ive had. It was also a chance to have a new beginning. In the end and because of it, I have made some really great realizations. My squids are my life....they make me want to be a better person for their sake. My 2 yr olds smile makes me the happiest girl on the planet, as do my 13 yr olds awesome hugs. I have a husband who seems for what ever reason to love me unconditionally even with my many ever present flaws.

I have taken things for granted at times...missed ppl along the way who really in fact didnt deserve it...had friends come and go...and come back and go again...talk about being a sucker for punishment. Made alot of wrong choices....but made some really great ones too. Everyone deserves to be respected...to have a friendly smile waiting for them. EVERYONE has 5 minutes in their day to say "hi, im thinking about you..." if they say they dont, that isnt the truth. Move onto the ones that make time for you. We all deserve that, we are all important. If you are thinking about someone, tell them, if you miss someone, go see them, if you made a mistake, apologize for it and move on. Life is too short to be worried about garbage. You never know what tomorrow may bring, so never wait to do the things you have talked about doing for the last 6 months, whether that means eating better, stop smoking, exercise, go on that weekend trip you keep threatening to take but never do, or finally run the tely 10....and always tell the ppl you care about that you love them.

So today....i make a choice to commit to ME! No one else will love and respect you if you dont love and respect yourself. Heres to a great summer and great potential!

If I have tagged you in this note its because you have given me something special...all or any one of the following.......time, a shoulder, tea at your kitchen table, love, encouragement, respect, motivation, inspiration, open mindedness, and patience. You may not have realized it at the time...and it may have been yesterday or 10 yrs ago....but thank you!
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  • this sounds just like me..., i even call my kids kidlets!! good luck to you :)