Please Help : ( I need support.......

Hello, I am posting this because I am at my wits end with getting healthy. I dont have any other choice......if I dont stop the binge eating and rapid weight gain, I am afraid I wont make it to see my children grow up. I have an addiction to food that consumes my life and I cant seem to get control of it. Has anyone else battled this problem? I am almost 200 lbs overweight and I am still YOUNG, I dont deserve this, but cant seem to love myself enough to fight for it. I have tried counseling for years, overeaters anonymous, been turned down for gastric bypass because my emotional eating, used diet pills over the counter and prescription, starved myself, NOTHING WORKS. I need support from anyone who has been in my shoes. This is my last hope to change my life, please, if you can offer any support, I could really use it and use as many friends as I can to help me along this journey. I dont want to go out like this, I want to live and enjoy life again with my family....please!