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0somuchbetter0
0somuchbetter0 Posts: 1,335 Member
edited December 2024 in Health and Weight Loss
I still have such a long way to go and I'm feeling discouraged! I don't need advice on calories or carbs or BMR or TDEE or anything like that. I don't really need any advice, for that matter. I think I have a bit of "new healthy lifestyle fatigue" and I'm letting some old (and bad!) eating habits creep back in. I know exactly what I'm doing and why, and I'm really struggling.

The other night my wallet was stolen right out of my purse without my even noticing it while I was at a work function at a pub (loud, crowded, etc.). I feel so ANGRY and VIOLATED, all I can think about is how I would make the perp suffer if I could get my hands on him. Not to mention the annoyance and expense of having to replace everything that was in my wallet...plus the wallet itself. UGH. I've been in a foul mood ever since, snapping at my family and feeling irritable all the time. The night it happened, I came home, told my husband all about it, and then proceeded to eat...and eat....and eat....and eat.... I didn't even realize what I was doing until I had consumed about 1500 calories of my kids' granola bars. This morning after a very good and filling breakfast, I found myself wandering around the kitchen feeling like I had the munchies, something I haven't experienced in over three months since I had lap band surgery. Fortunately I stopped myself before I started mindlessly shoving food in my mouth.

Hmm....clearly there's a dysfunctional connection here between emotions and food! I've started seeing a therapist about this, but she's out of town this weekend and my next appointment isn't until next Sunday. Anyway, like I said, I don't really need any advice, I just hoped that by writing this out and getting it off my chest and sharing a little with you good people, I'd re-gain just a little bit of control.

Now going to hit the elliptical. Thanks for listening.

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  • cmriverside
    cmriverside Posts: 34,839 Member
    Writing about emotional connections was immensely helpful for me. I have pages in a journal on my computer. I don't always tell the whole ugly truth when I write in something that someone else can read, but for me a private journal has been the best place to work out my bothersome thoughts.

    Good luck. Keep writing.
  • franke1260
    franke1260 Posts: 7
    I'm kind of new to this and am looking for friends who will support me. Sounds like we have the same problem: we need more self-control! I lose control at night and blow my diet for the whole day. If only someone would tell me to stop! You have done pretty well having lost so much weight. Maybe therapy would help me. I don't know. I will offer you some support if you will return the favor! Feel free to add me as a friend.
  • LCgymnast
    LCgymnast Posts: 258
    Glad you got it out. Venting to others is so relieving! Hope you feel better soon. :smile:
  • LyssaJ1
    LyssaJ1 Posts: 240 Member
    Man, I'd be p*ssed as heck too! Glad you *did* catch yourself this morning :smile:

    I keep a blog that I post to...part to cope with whatever is going on, part to remind myself why I'm doing this, and part to remember wtf I'm doing on any given day (a lil bit o' brain damage here, courtesy of meds :grumble: )

    When I get super angry, I punch pillows...less chance of injuring my wrists and no chance of damaging the house. If I were to "walk it off" I'd probably hurt myself ~lame chuckle~.

    Night time for me, is, well...when I tend to be wiiiide awake, so I *do* tend to get a bit stupid/lose my discipline. I'm hoping that after I get my FitBit, show my docs the sleep results, maybe they can help me do something about it!

    Be good to you! :smile:
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