small victory means big things!

Nessi37

Hello All :flowerforyou:

I am so excited!!! This morning I finally saw undeniable proof that my hard work is paying off... my shirt is LOOSE! A month or two ago I tried this same shirt on and almost threw it away in disgust. It stuck to my belly and was very unflattering. There was no way I could have worn it to work and felt comfortable. I cried and cried and thought here we go, up another shirt size. I felt disgusted and ashamed.

My sister and also my best friend have had weight loss surgery within the last year. They have lost a total of 170 pounds combined! Although I am happy for them there is a part of me that is very jealous of their success. There is also a huge part of me that is done hearing the nagging about how I should have surgery myself. It's just not going to happen. :noway: I am sure there are many situtations where surgery is the answer, but not mine. I would rather do it the old fasion way even if it is harder and takes much much longer. I want to reconnect with my body and learn how to treat it right. The should be a good thing right?

Even though I am commited to making better choices for myself I have struggled with not being able to see any differences in my body. It has been very hard on me that although the scale shows an 11 pound weight loss my famiy and friends and even myself have not been able to see a difference. I have felt at times like my hard work and lifestyle changes were a step in the right direction but just not enough. What else did I have to give up? I know what happens when you starve youself to lose weight. The pounds come back and they bring their friends, and neighbors....and long lost relatives...and maybe a coworker or two:blushing:

Well this morning I found my motivation. I may not have lost a huge amount of weight yet and no one else might be able to see the changes but I FELT them. It's nice to notice something good about my body for a change! I am going to do this one pound at a time. I am going to remember that its not race. I am doing this for myself because I am worth it and I deserve to be happy and healthy.

Here's to the next 10 pounds! :drinker: I am ready!

quietHiker

That's the attitude! so glad you were able to feel this NSV! Loose clothing is an amazing feeling! ) Keep up the hard work you're doing and I'm sure others will start seeing your loss too

MaryRegs

My husband's line is "your clothes don't lie"...and he is right. I, too, have a very close friend who underwent surgery at the beginning of the summer-and I am feeling the exact same way you do. While I know it is for her own good, I am jealous that she is losing weight very quickly-while I am not. I, however, feel like this is my lifestyle change, and am proud of my efforts. You should be too! One day at a time....