Paranoia/Self-Centred - Advice Please :(

SunKissed1989

I've always been a paranoid person...well, it started mainly a few years ago when a so-called 'friend' of mine ditched me after 1 nd a half years of friendship through uni claiming I was immature, naive, 'pathetically dependent' and lots of other negative characteristics.
Since then, I've always been worried that I annoy people (especially my friends) and they're just not telling me and it's eventually going to boil over and burst into another fall out and loss of another friend which I don't think I can deal with. I broke up with my boyfriend earlier this year and my family and friends mean the world to me.
I always think people are talking about me behind my back when I'm not in the room. I've moved away from home now for uni and whenever I walk to the laundry room/library/gym on my own and a group of people are walking behind me or around me talking and laughing, I'm secretly worrying that they're laughing and mocking me. If I leave a room and there are other people still in the room after I leave, I worry that as soon as the door closes, they start talking about me or if I go in another direction (ie, back to the flat and my roommates go somewhere else) by myself.

Just tonight, I had my supper in the kitchen, reading my kindle, I thought everyone was in their room doing their own thing, getting ready for bed, I eventually washed my dishes and headed back to my room to finish my book. About half an hour later, I heard voices in the kitchen (my room is right next to the kitchen) and my flatmates were having a cuppa and chatting away, just random gossip, probably not concerning me, but I didn't like the idea that my roommates (who are now good friends to me) were having a girly chat without me and I got the idea that I was being excluded and finally got up to join them even though I was ready to go to bed.

I know the world doesn't revolve around me and not everyone wants to talk about me blah blah blah, but when I'm on my own, I'm paranoid that people are talking about me, insulting me, thinking of how to tell me I'm annoying them.

Does anyone else ever feel like this?? Am I being self-centred? I know I am a paranoid person (no thanks to that so-called 'friend' of mine) but is there anyway to stop feeling like the whole world is against me??

childofArtemis24

whoaaa! Settle down girl! I have no clue how to even answer this It sounds to me like , there is another underlying issue. I use to be paranoid , but it was the kind of paranoid of thinking that every guy was a sex offender. ( are county is big for that, and meth) . And 9 times out of 10 my paranoia paid off, the uneasy feelings I got from strangers were spot on. But, i would say it sounds to me like its low self-esteem.
Try not to think about it. Keep your ipod or mp3 on you, and listen to it. Then your mind won't wonder about all these things. Cause the music will, easy your mind. Your not the only one who thinks like this, i did for a long time, and still kinda do.

jg627

Being paranoid is what kept ancient people alive in the bush, so, no, probably not going away, but it gets worse if you let it get out of control. The biggest thing is sleep. If you're not getting enough, it'll get worse. Keep a journal. Eat right and get all your macros and exercise. Don't do very low fat diets or any weird fad diet for that matter, just keep it balanced. Make sure you have somebody you trust who can talk you down if you do get out of control. Try to laugh often. Keep busy. Get some hobbies. Good luck.