My biggest success in life!

siggakolla

This year marks year 5 of being depression and anxiety free for me!

i battled anxiety since I was a child and as a result got depression. I went through a little bit of bullying because my weight and i completely isolated myself from kids to protect myself from getting her "i´ll reject them before they can reject me"

When i was about 13 i startet self harming, binging and purging and contemplating suicide. I started skipping school and faking illnesses to be able to stay at home sick. every day i went to school i would pray that I would get hit by a car on the way so i wouldnt have to go. I even tried to break my own arm one morning.
This went on a few years and with the support of my family i started seeing a therapist and i went on anti depressant when therapy alone wasnt working. Early 2006, when i was at a summer house with some of my friends, i got drunk and took an entire bottle of pills. my friend called an ambulance and i was rushed to hospital and then later admitted to the psychiatric ward for children and teenagers. I always knew i didnt want to die, even at the time when i was taking the pills i knew. But like i told my parents "everybody knew I was hurting, but nobody knew just how much i was hurting" Being in the psych ward really helped and was definitely what i needed. After 4 weeks i was discharged.
After that i had weekly sessions, then bi weekly sessions and then monthly sessions.. I was on medication until end of 2009 (doctor recommended staying on meds until at least a year after "feeling fine" )

Since end of 2007 i have been able to say i am depression free! yes its a struggle still, i need to be more careful about my feelings than most people and i need remind myself to tell people if im feeling down. There are some things that cause some anxiety for me, but i know now that if something makes me anxious i NEED to confront it! because other wise it will just escalate and become this huge issue!

When people ask me how i beat depression i always say " i just stopped thinking negative thoughts, it might not be that easy but it is that simple" some people might need medication through the toughest times like i did, which is fine, but when it comes down it its about changing the way you think!

briannadunn

Thankyou for posting this, it is great for people to remember to stay positive.

marvelmo

thanks for sharing your story. It's certainly open my eyes having a teen. Wishing you joy

PDCbran

That is truly a blessing! I too struggle with depression but Im doing great! God is so awesome and I thank him daily for happiness and peace of mind! So happy for you!

RiseAndConverge

:flowerforyou: BIG, BIG HUGS

Solly123

Huge thank you for posting. My brother suffers from depression and it shocked me when we started getting him really talking about stuff, the things that really brought him down and he brooded over. Things I'd brush off and carry on and forget, he was really analysing them and going over it and over it in his head.

It really made me realise the importance of actually listening. And I mean really listening.. Going though the issues no matter how unimportant we may think they are - they are important to someone - and we need to respect that..

siggakolla

Huge thank you for posting. My brother suffers from depression and it shocked me when we started getting him really talking about stuff, the things that really brought him down and he brooded over. Things I'd brush off and carry on and forget, he was really analysing them and going over it and over it in his head.

It really made me realise the importance of actually listening. And I mean really listening.. Going though the issues no matter how unimportant we may think they are - they are important to someone - and we need to respect that..

I can definitely relate to the little things really getting to you, I once dropped my pen in front of my class when i was a teenager, and i literally obsessed over it for days, beating myself up for embarrassing myself like that!


Thank you all for your kind words!