My story till now and I need your advice and support

wishiwerefit

To all those who sincerely replied to my post,
I cant express my gratitude. I really cant.
To all those who are reading this for the first time, please take a look at my older posts and advise

This is my story-
I was 12 when I joined a new school , a residential one and everyone made fun of my weight. I weighed 99 pounds then, I wasnt obese but I did weigh that much. That made me crash diet and I lsot weight. Afterwards when I came home,I used to stuff myself with good food and again go into starvation back in school as I didnt like the food there. Though our school had a good exercise regimen, I used to find it torturing as I had no energy to do it.

During my last days at school, I came to know that some of my good friends I had helped to study had secret nickames for me due to my obvious butt and thighs. I was heartbroken.

During college, I had a very bad break up with my ex bf, and I started eating to console myself. Yes this lasted for 3 years and I weighed an alarming 143 pounds. And in the final year, I started reading about good food,healthy eating etc, and I used to use the treadmill for 30 minutes daily. when I started working some of my seniors from college who worked there barely recognized me as I had dropped down to 121 pounds!!! All these days, I was still known for my huge butt and the lack of femininity....

During all stages, whenever someone asks me to exercise, I always feel insulted. I have this feeling that the person is judging my body and I am very uncomfortable with that.

And now again, I guess after all those fluctuations I am not able to eat that much unless I am forced or unless I am annoyed with myself.

I know I might draw some flak from strong willed people here, but I am willing to make a change.

Now I have decided to exercise, after I posted an article in another forum about how I am unable to run fast as I get a throbbing pain in my chest. They suggested that I should listen to my body. That was the post that made me realize that exercise is not meant only for people who r strong.. We can do as much as we want to.

By then, I had binged a lot as well, so though I am not overweight I have become even more disproportionate with a thin lower body and bulky thighs sagging butt and saddlebag.


Now I want to change. I am trying Jillian Michales 30Day Shred. I'll be meeting my fmly and frnds after a gap and I want to hear some good comments. Am I in the right path of exercise?

Helloitsdan

30DS is great as long as you fuel it.
Dont have a sedentary setting and dont do the 1200 thing.
If you need help figuring numbers out just send a PM my way as well as a friend request.

In the meantime look at this: http://www.myfitnesspal.com/topics/show/654536-in-place-of-a-road-map-2-0-revised-7-2-12

cmeade20

30 DS was my starting point and I got good results but as the above poster said make sure you appropriately fuel your body especially if you want to develop muscle in your thighs and glutes. And if you experience chest pain from working out maybe talk things over with a doctor prior to brginning working out?

wishiwerefit

30 DS was my starting point and I got good results but as the above poster said make sure you appropriately fuel your body especially if you want to develop muscle in your thighs and glutes. And if you experience chest pain from working out maybe talk things over with a doctor prior to brginning working out?

Hi the chest pain is more like a muscle pull or something pulling from inside the rib cage or near the arm pits. Some people told me this is cos Iam not warming up

dcaraballo78

I may not be the best person to help but I can relate with your insecurities. I too was achubby child and I grew up with the ugly duckling syndrome and know the feeling that I am been judged. The best thing I've done to over come that is remindingmyselfits in my head and if someone invites me t work out ill be all for it. I wd love a workout buddy. I wouldn't take that as an insult. No one likes to excersice alone and they may thing u are good company and dedicated.. as for as everything lse. Do what u do for yourself and ur health..not to please others. That way it doesn't Matter what u think their opinions are bc u. R doing it for yourself not themwhen u workout do a little at a time enjoy yourself and it wd become easy..I am struggling myself w thisnow but I'm trying. Hopehopethis helps. Maybe u can give me some advice from time to time:-)

wishiwerefit

I may not be the best person to help but I can relate with your insecurities. I too was achubby child and I grew up with the ugly duckling syndrome and know the feeling that I am been judged. The best thing I've done to over come that is remindingmyselfits in my head and if someone invites me t work out ill be all for it. I wd love a workout buddy. I wouldn't take that as an insult. No one likes to excersice alone and they may thing u are good company and dedicated.. as for as everything lse. Do what u do for yourself and ur health..not to please others. That way it doesn't Matter what u think their opinions are bc u. R doing it for yourself not themwhen u workout do a little at a time enjoy yourself and it wd become easy..I am struggling myself w thisnow but I'm trying. Hopehopethis helps. Maybe u can give me some advice from time to time:-)

Thank you for your reply, I know the person tells me out of his/her love towards me, but I feel judged and I hate myself when they say you need to do this exercise to lose weights off your butt/thighs etc. Everytime I meet someone, I would be like, Omg, hope this person doesnt notice and comment on my body.but it always happens. I feel very depressed.. Well, one good thing is I never make fun of anyone's physique even if the whole room is laughing as I know how much it hurts.

i hope to support you in our journey!

Annette_rose

I do think you are on the right track. I do have to ask, have you had a good checkup before beginning your working out? The reason being, when you suffer, or have suffered, an eating disorder it can have many effects on the body and you want to make sure all is okay. We get patients in the clinic who have suffered from an ED and have heart problems, etc. They may want you to start out slowly, which is really best anyway. We have one doctor who works very closely with teens with anorexia/bulemia, and the vast majority of these girls are beautiful young women who just don't see themselves as beautiful and some are slowly killing themselves. Some will even strap ankle weights on during their visits with him (underneath their jeans), just to try and weigh more and not have to keep a feeding tube in. We have not seen your picture, but I can almost guarantee you are a beautiful young lady who is way too hard on herself. I don't know how tall you are, but there are many women who would LOVE to be 143 and your being 105 is very slender. No, exercise is not just for strong people, but for everyone. My personal opinion is that you don't need to "lose" any weight at all. I think you will find yourself feeling better with strength training and some cardio. I am proud of you. It is hard to put your life out there for everyone to see and comment on.:flowerforyou:

wishiwerefit

I do think you are on the right track. I do have to ask, have you had a good checkup before beginning your working out? The reason being, when you suffer, or have suffered, an eating disorder it can have many effects on the body and you want to make sure all is okay. We get patients in the clinic who have suffered from an ED and have heart problems, etc. They may want you to start out slowly, which is really best anyway. We have one doctor who works very closely with teens with anorexia/bulemia, and the vast majority of these girls are beautiful young women who just don't see themselves as beautiful and some are slowly killing themselves. Some will even strap ankle weights on during their visits with him (underneath their jeans), just to try and weigh more and not have to keep a feeding tube in. We have not seen your picture, but I can almost guarantee you are a beautiful young lady who is way too hard on herself. I don't know how tall you are, but there are many women who would LOVE to be 143 and your being 105 is very slender. No, exercise is not just for strong people, but for everyone. My personal opinion is that you don't need to "lose" any weight at all. I think you will find yourself feeling better with strength training and some cardio. I am proud of you. It is hard to put your life out there for everyone to see and comment on.:flowerforyou:

I am generally healthy and I dont fall sick often.. The doctors first ask me to eat properly so havnt had a chance to talk further.
Thank you Annette. You are a darling! yes, lot of people have told me that I am beautiful. Infact my mom says,"Ok, I am going to tell you something that will annoy you. One of my ex-colleagues came to the office today and she kept on telling my friends ,"you should see her daugher.she is so beautiful"" "But if I tell you this , you will be mad at me and you wont even believe it, you dont believe that you are a beautiful girl" My mom said this

cmeade20

30 DS was my starting point and I got good results but as the above poster said make sure you appropriately fuel your body especially if you want to develop muscle in your thighs and glutes. And if you experience chest pain from working out maybe talk things over with a doctor prior to brginning working out?

Hi the chest pain is more like a muscle pull or something pulling from inside the rib cage or near the arm pits. Some people told me this is cos Iam not warming up

Oh ok, I know what ou're talking about. 30 DS has a decent warm up

wishiwerefit

30 DS was my starting point and I got good results but as the above poster said make sure you appropriately fuel your body especially if you want to develop muscle in your thighs and glutes. And if you experience chest pain from working out maybe talk things over with a doctor prior to brginning working out?

Hi the chest pain is more like a muscle pull or something pulling from inside the rib cage or near the arm pits. Some people told me this is cos Iam not warming up

Oh ok, I know what ou're talking about. 30 DS has a decent warm up

Yes, in fact I was surprised to see I hd no such pain after 30 DS cardio..which is also a reason i like it

wishiwerefit

This site has got me addicted! If ony I had seen this before.. Good night guys

michellersalo

There are more benefits of exercise other than just losing weight (even though, that's why most of us are here right). So maybe your friends who are asking you to workout don't mean that you NEED to. Maybe they just need the extra motivation that a workout buddy provides.

What is most important when starting an exercise program (other than health related issues) is that it is something that you can maintain for the long term and that you ENJOY doing. If you like 30DS, then by all means, do it! I love to teach spin, yoga and kettlebells so that's what I do. I love to lift heavy weights so, again, that's what I do.

Good luck and let me know if there is anything that you need!

steph1014

I think that you are taking the right path as far as exercising. As far as running goes, you do have to listen to your body, BUT after doing it routinely your body will begin to condition itself and increase its ability as far as speed and distance. I used to weigh 330lbs when I first started my weightloss journey. After losing 50lbs I decided to train for a 5k. My body was completely resistant. I was always having pains in my sides, my chest felt like it was going to jump out of my body (from having to take in that much oxygen which it never did before), and even my calves were in pain. As time went on my body began to build endurance and progress. My theory to speed was slow and steady. Periodically, I would throw in speed intervals.

Moral of the long response is that only you know what you are capable of and are willing to do. If you want to run, then by golly you run. If you want to dance, then dance. Don't let anyone tell you differently. Your body will tell you when to stop for a breather, but never give up.

Lalouse

Thanks for sharing your story. I related to alot of it, especially the fluctuations in weight and the emotions that lead to them and that followed. I also great frustrated with exercise or weight comments.

I have some health restrictions when it comes to pushing myself to exercise, but I know there is always something you can do. If you can't run for 30 minutes, you can walk for an hour. If you can't run at all, try taking classes at the gym. My husband has problems with his feet, and can't run at all.. his doctor recommended swimming instead! There's always a solution and you can find a way!

karrielynn80

Your story reminds me of many i've read, even mine to some extent - the simple yo-yo type scenerio (reasons varying)... on and off again [with some form of exercise or diet] only to see moderate results and then failure.

I commend you for getting back on the wagon & research enough to do it in a healthy manner this time. Each time you fail it becomes that much harder to try again & that much easier to just give up & be content. Great job for sticking in there.

3 things I try to remember myself:
1. everyone is different & those with success are loyal to what works for them:
~ take all the advise you can get, but pick out what does or doesn't suit you - make sure you aren't picking it out for lazy reasons, but real reasons and remember it will take you a while to get into something that really works for you; and even then you'll be constantly changing / growing your routine*
2. Consistancy (paired with #3) is key - whatever you find will work for you, set a certain timeframe & stick with it - then after you complete it, adjust to fit & start again.
3."Change never happens in your comfort zone" whether your running, strength training, doing at home videos,etc, find ways to challenge yourself not just every workout, but every actual exercise & every day. if you're running change it up often (wkly for me) either in resistance or endurance. in life, throw in some extras that you wouldn't normally do, taking the stairs, walking on breaks, adding mini challenges thru the day (i love these & they are great for days you can't get to the gym - find them in the fitness routine daily - there are several).

Glad we are friends!, hope we can encourage each other. I think you do look great - but i'm a big supporter of constantly improving yourself. don't be content to be low weight - don't be content to be anything. someone once said to me (not in reference to fitness, but i apply it there) "if you're not moving fwd, you're moving backward"... so true!

cebreisch

Just wanted to offer some thoughts....Regarding the exercise, I agree with those who have suggested seeing a doctor just to make sure everything's okay before starting the 30DS.

Further, my husband has completed the P90x and Insanity workouts - those are things I couldn't do. He feels like he has to do it at home because he won't make himself go to a gym, and he feels uncomfortable in that environment. I can't do those at home because I'm just not motivated to - I do better if I go to a gym. I don't care what people at the gym think. Point being: be true to yourself in realizing what you are or aren't willing to do in the exercise realm. I've spent too much money on videos/DVDs that did nothing but collect dust. I'm sure they were all great workouts, but they're only useful if you actually do them. That wasn't in me to do. I've thought about getting that program, but am more scared I'll follow past practice and let it collect dust - would rather invest that money in gym membership and go there than the alternative.

Another thing to consider would be to get a Fitbit. I call it an "activity tracker." It'll give you feedback as to how many calories you burn vs. how many you've consumed because it syncs with MyFitnessPal. There's a new one coming out in November that syncs with iPads/iPhones.

Lastly, consider seeing a therapist for the body image and other issues. I never would have thought it would help me, but it has. The therapist I see has had the gastric bypass surgery and lost a lot of weight himself, so I'm not talking to somebody who's always been a "size one civilian" - he's "battled the beast" too.

For what it's worth...and good luck!!