Has anyone else been here?

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When I started my journey I was a size 16 (sometimes an 18) and I remember telling a close friend I would be so happy if I could just make it to a size 10. I remember being a size 12 in 6th grade, so to be a size 10 I thought would just be amazing! Yes, that's settling a bit, but when I started I honestly didn't think I would make it as far as I've come.

Fast forward 10 months and here I am a size 10! Yay! Is it honestly where I want to be though? No. My body isn't toned and I'm still at a rather high weight for my height. I'd like to be more like a size 6-8, toned, and a healthy weight for my height (basically I'd just like to be fit and healthy). So what's the issue?

I cannot seem to motivate myself.

It's like a switch has flipped in my brain going "ok, size 10, you're done" except I'm so not done! I went from exercising 3-5 days a week to nothing. I haven't really gained weight (the last month I've been gaining/losing the same 2 lbs) and still log everything but I can for sure tell you I haven't been making the best choices. I mean if I lose two more pounds I'll be at 50 lbs lost and even the idea of that hasn't really pushed me to work harder.

Has anyone else been here? I haven't given up by any means, and I do know that you have to REALLY want it in order to motivate yourself, but just arghhhh! I wish I could find that fire in me again