MANY SURGERIES, MILITARY MOM, STRESS

twinkle941980

HI, MY NAME IS STAR MANLEY. I AM A VIRGO, 32 YEARS OLD, MARRIED, FOUR KIDS, AM NOT(AND I REPEAT NOT) A POLITICAL PERSON, LAID BACK BUT STRESSED OUT(YEAH WEIRD, GO FIGURE), I LIKE PEOPLE BUT I AM NOT A PEOPLE PERSON. I TEND TO LET THINGS BOTHER ME QUITE ALOT WHICH IS WHY I ENDED UP HERE BECAUSE I AM SERIOUSLY UPSET WITH MYSELF FOR WEIGHING AND LOOKING LIKE WHAT I DO. I KNOW TO SOME THEY MAY LOOK AT MY WEIGHT AND GOAL AND SAY I AM INSANE BUT IT IS THERE JUST HIDDEN WHERE PEOPLE CAN'T TELL. I AM IN THE ARMY AND HAVE BEEN FOR NINE YEARS. I HAVE BEEN TO IRAQ AND MISSED MANY OF MY KIDS MILESTONES AND PROJECTS FOR SCHOOL AND EVERYTHING ELSE IN BETWEEN. I AM BEING MEDICALLY RETIRED DUE TO A BACK INJURY FROM MY DEPLOYMENT, MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES AND MUCH MORE. I HAVE HAD ISSUES WITH CANCER, DUB (GOOGLE IT, I DON'T WANT TO GET TOO GROSS ON HERE LOL), 3 CSECTIONS, TUMMY TUCK TO REMOVE BUILT UP SCAR TISSUE AND TOO MUCH MORE. I AM PROUD OF WHAT I HAVE DONE THUS FAR BUT I AM JUST DONE WITH THIS CHAPTER OF MY LIFE AND READY TO MOVE ON. I AM FROM GEORGIA AND ALSO LIVE HERE CURRENTLY BUT WE (THE FAM) ARE PLANNING ON MOVING BACK TO MARYLAND (WHERE ME AND THE HUBBY MET) AS SOON AS I RECEIVE MY DISMISSAL PAPERS FROM THE MILITARY. i PLAN TO MAKE THIS A LIFELONG JOURNEY BUT JUST NEED A JUMPSTART WITH THIS. EVERYTIME I START TO DO RIGHT SOME MAJOR OR EMOTIONAL EVENT HAPPENS IN MY LIFE AND I GIVE UP ON MY GOALS, I DON'T WANT THIS TO BE JUST LIKE THE PREVIOUS TIMES BEFORE. WHEN I MOVE I PLAN TO BE 20 POUNDS LIGHTER THAN WHAT I AM, COMING IN AT ABOUT 125 IF I AM LUCKY. HECK, I USED TO WEIGH 105LBS IN HIGH SCHOOL AND HAD TO GET A WAIVER TO COME INTO THE MILITARY THE FIRST TIME BECAUSE I WAS UNDERWEIGHT. I JUST NEED SOME ENCOURAGEMENT AND IN THE PROCESS TRY TO HELP OTHERS IN SAME PREDICAMENT AS MYSELF. THIS IS MY LAST RESORT IF THIS DOESN'T WORK I WILL JUST FORGET ABOUT IT BUT PREFER TO STICK IT OUT. HOPE TO HEAR FROM SUPPORTERS SOON WHO WANT THE SAME IN RETURN! THANK Y'ALL :bigsmile: :bigsmile: