My Only Success..

Restybaby2012

....so far is the 70 pounds that I swear I cannot really feel or see. I do see a little in my face and have had people remark how stunning my complexion is now and how the puffiness and dark circles under my eyes is gone. My skin has this "tone" to it...I swear the color has changed. I do notice in my jeans of course...but not like I think I should for this amount of weight. Im actually inclined to think my scale is off....yet it weighs 5lbs of sugar as such. I just dont think the 70 is accurate and will check to be sure at the next doc visit.

Here's my worry / concern / insecurity even. I look at the success pictures y'all post...ladies and gents alike and I wonder. I wonder if that will ever ever be me. Will I ever be noticeably smaller? Will there ever been THAT much of a difference? Some of you have made such huge drastic changes you barely appear to be the "same" person.

NO Im NOT giving up. Im not depressed or upset. Im just asking...just curious. Please dont flame me...Im not attention seeking just looking for some wisdom from those who are or have been there.

Here's what Killer does in the mornings

rdianemu

Great job on the loss so far. I am sure you look a lot different already. It is hard to see your own change sometimes. It helps me to take pictures as I go or else I look in the mirror and just see the same old fat me.

mercymarque

R u going to post a picute? We are always the last to really notice because we are so use to seeing ourselves one way. 70 pounds is a lot of weight loss, that's a huge accomplishment. Focus on how u feel and how ur clothes are fitting u. U will notice the difference if u haven't taken pictures, I suggest u do so. Good luch on ur journey!

RobinvdM

Hey kiddo - don't be so hard on yourself. You have every right to feel frustrated with the seeming lack of visible progress. I was RIGHT there with you 2 or 3 months ago. Everyone around me exclaimed about the differences THEY could see, but I couldn't see it, or feel it. I was still the same blah fatty fat me.. that is until I had to go buy new summer shorts in a 2x. Even then it was difficult to transition emotionally from my brain shouting "YOU CANT WEAR THOSE- THEY ARE TOO SMALL WTH ARE YOU THINKING!" into the "Holy crap... they fit?!" Once I was able to accept that my clothes were indeed far too big I got critical and really started paying attention to the changes. Then I started writing them all down.

Write down your NSVs on the days they happen, write down your measurements, etc.. Give yourself something to look at on days when you are still feeling like that person you left behind 70lbs ago. Take "before/after" shots - every 4 weeks, or every 8 weeks. That will definitely help you see the differences for yourself - just a matter of YOU deciding to let yourself see the difference. That really is the hang up, it was for sure for me.

Id give you a big fat warm hug, but my hugs aren't quite as fat as they used to be Instead youre just going to have to settle for the kind that wrap-arounds

besaro

I am feeling the same way. I have only lost 22 pounds and can't believe I can't tell a difference. I picked up a bag of dog food the other day that was 20 lbs and thought, holy crap! Ive lost all this? From where?! My husband says he can see it in your face. and I exclaimed, lets hope not the whole 20!

Congrats on your 70, I can't wait to see your b/a.

Restybaby2012

I cant believe Im gonna say this......

I havent taken measurements.........nor have I taken ANY pictures. They both scare me.....seriously. I hate pics of myself and measurements can only put me over the edge (LOL sorta) I keep telling myself I will and that I'll mysteriously know "when" and poooooooof it'll all be ok. (now who has their head in the clouds...even the river--of denial!!!)

I KNOW I should.
I KNOW Ive lost weight cuz I feel so freakin much better....I certainly breathe better which has been a horrible issue for me the last year thanks to some mold infection. BUT with the weight loss that's getting some better. I guess Im not all that different than others here...........I want the end result NOW and I dont wanna "weight" for it LOL. I have no issue with working for it I just want it to happen now.

Im open and willing to accept all input...just dont beat me to death ok? I have no issue with honesty..but temper it (or I'll cry I swear) :blushing:

Restybaby2012

QUICK!!!!!!!!!!beforeIlosemynerve


Here's the bottom line........

FEAR



Fear I cant make it happen

Graceious1

If you've dropped a few dress sizes then there will be your answer. Well done on such a phenomenal loss. :flowerforyou:

sunshinefrei

Don't forget fear can be our enemy and keep us from success. Don't fear success, just look at all the things you can now do no matter how little they are at this point it means you body is changing for the better. Like breathing better that is really a big one and one I have to look forward too. And your coloring is so much better that is a big one that reflects our inter health!!! Means your body like what it is getting and the weight loss. I bet you look different now but you see your self everyday and when we see our self everyday we look the same to our selves we sometimes still see the obese person in the mirror. You have made such great strides in your goals. I couldn't be prouder of you than I am at this moment!!! So chin up and one foot in front of the other and keep up the good work you have done so far and in the end their will be a different you. Remember the weight is moving around now and making a new you just wait and you will see the inter beauty that will come out. The fun part of this is that everyone will see you then strutting a new you as you are now.
I look in the mirror everyday and tell myself that I love who I am today, and I will love who I become tomorrow no matter what I might look like!!!
We are so blessed to have this site with others on this journey with us who will cheer for us and go to bat for us! Thank you MFP for providing a free site for all of us to become who we were meant to be!
You inspire me soooo much to keep track of this journey and what I will become makes me so excited that patience can be hard some days. But I keep stepping along this path of unknown and try to be patience to see what I will become at the end.
HUGS!!! to you
Cheri

HisangelG

Hugs.

strawberrytoast

You dont really notice any difference day to day as you live in/see/feel your body all the time.

Definetely take measurements- dont be afraid of it as you know these numbers are going down, plus they wont be as bad as hen you started. Waist, hips, arms, thighs, bust.

Take a picture now, keep it for yourself only and hide it for a month or 2 then compare

NewLIFEstyle4ME

Flame you?!?

No way, I'm wayyyyyy proud of you, Rock it sis!

Ya know, this weight didn't just appear overnight and it's going to take some time. 70 pounds is a tremendous amount to drop kick into the place where the sun don't shine and for you to banish 70 big ones is nothing less than tremendous! :flowerforyou: