realisation of binging

patricktoobig

so i wanted to share what i ate yesterday because whilst food shopping the lady at the tills was scanning all my food and when it was time to pay turned to me and she said " are you having a binge?" and laughed, i laughed too i thought no im just getting some dinner, but i guess she was right.

marshmallows
6 bakewell tarts
bar of soft nougat
share bag doritos
extra large bounty bar
extra large snickers bar
dominos x2 large cheese and tomato, stuffed crust, meatball and chicken pizzas
chicken and rice


im starting to realise how bad my food habits are, i sat thinking about it last night and for the first time ever i was tempted to make myself sick because i felt so bad that id stuffed myself with so much food. i dont even think i taste things anymore, i just stuff it in.
does anyone else have this problem?

mabelbabel1

If I'm feeling down or upset then I do the same. I always talk to the cashier and say something about having friends coming over to try and momentarily justify the crap I have bought.
I've never made myself sick, part of my suffering and punishment is to make myself feel so bad and sick that I get no pleasure from the foods I've just eaten.
I look back after I've eaten all my rubbish and realise that actually I didn't enjoy it at all and start the feeling of worthlessness all over again.

Thankfully I haven't done this for several months now.....but I'm only ever one upset away.

Trudyr777

I have discovered that if I shop when I am feeling sad, depressed or stressed, it's a BAD thing. I will buy things I "want" but don't need, then sit in the car and eat them before I get home so that hubby doesn't see. So I started keeping a note pad in the car, I force myself to make a list (if I haven't already) and if it's not on the list I don't buy it. PERIOD!! I need that structure!! Food has always played such a huge part of my life and now I am learning to control it and not vice versa!

iecreamheadaches

story of my life dude.

I lose a few pounds then i just get this sickening craving for sweet stuff that's insatiable no matter what i put in my pie hole. Yesterday I got to blame it on my daughters 2nd birthday, but I know better. Should have had more self control. Its hard, especially when you're just starting out and trying to make that big life change to eat better. I mean, at least it is for me. Its like this giant step that I just haven't quite conquered yet, but I believe that if at first you don't succeed, try again. And that's just what I'm doing.

Every time I fall off the wagon and go on a binge, I sit back, assess what I've just eaten and why I probably shouldn't have, then have a go at it again and try to do better the next week. It usually works. I'm actually on restart today after all the cake and chips and what not I ate yesterday.

patricktoobig

yeh i agree i defiantly binge out of depression or loneliness too, its like as long as that food is there surrounding me im happy but the second ive eaten it all im sad again. its not only the health side thats bad its the money, when i think of all the money ive wasted on junk food alone it blows my mind,

i live alone so i can bring home as much crap as i like and eat like a pig and there is no-one there to judge me, but ive started to feel embarrassed of myself, wondering why i only feel satisfied when im so full i feel really sick.

im restarting today too, i cant do that anymore. time to get a grip.

1sisrat

Behavior modification techniques can help here. Logging it will help, a lot. Being mindful is the first step of change it's called "contemplation". Next you have to make a plan. Then it's time to implement it. Don't create a plan you cannot do. A few small goals so start will are a great way to get it started. That way you will feel successfull and be encouraged to move to the next step. Instead of thinking about what you can take away from yourself, think about what you can add. example-add another glass of water a day, and a salad with dinner. Start there, challenge yourself to do it for one week. See how you feel. Then add another goal... and so on and so on. Also, the mindfull part is finding out what triggers you to shop/buy/eat the "bad for you" food. Write down what you are feeing, pay attention to possible memories/depression that is occuring. Sweets act as a seritonin increaser and makes your brain feel good. Reward yourself for succeeding with things other than food. If you don't know what makes you happy, then just think about something you've always wanted to do and that is affordable of course and do it.